Sad Day

I first met West online in a chat room 10 years ago. He was a 12 year old kid and I was almost 30 but somehow this kid got to me and I took him under my wing. Over the years we stayed friends. Talked, video chatted, phone calls, chat room, MSN. I sent xmas and bday presents and sometimes he'd send them back. Mostly he was a broke teenager and then a broke college student.  But I loved him and he loved me and we were friends, good friends through the good and the bad.  2 years ago I bought him a leather Seahawks jacket. He loved the hawks and I swear he wore that jacket even in the summer. He'd always tell me how much he loved it and always wore it. Said he couldn't wait for it to get cold so he could wear his jacket. 

This past weekend West died in  car accident. Since we were online friends his family didn't notify me. I only found out through his facebook page where friends and family were posting about him being gone.  I didn't believe it but then his dad posted. There was a story in his local paper. And my friend of 10 years is gone. He said he couldn't wait to see the sexy skinny ***** I was headed for. He was proud that I had lost my 100lbs and every pound I got his support on.  I was supposed to chat with him online this weekend but I figured since he didn't come online that he was just working or busy. I missed chatting with him on Friday because I was late at work.  My last conversation with him was a text on Thursday.  Life gets in the way sometimes but then death gets in the way even more.

So West my friend, I miss you and love you and I hope you found good things on the other side. Otherwise I suspect you will be reincarnated as my next cat the way you always said you wanted to be. 

This post made me cry.  We really don't know how fleeting life is until something like this happens.  I am so sorry for your sudden loss even though I don't know you or West.  I hope you are able to take comfort in the fact that you helped make his life happier while he was here and remember what great memories you have of him. 

I am so sorry to hear about your devastating loss. You are such an amazing person and without a doubt changed his life and made a deep impact. Let yourself grieve, but just know he's in a good place right now. 

When I think of how much you both changed each other's lives in such a profound way, my heart breaks for your terrible loss. You took him under your wing when he was 12, now he has angel wings. God bless, Sharon

I am so sorry for your loss.  

Thanks everyone. It's been hard to really believe that he's gone but I've come to terms with his loss. At least he didn't suffer and he didn't end up a vegetable. I'm not really religious so I'm just wishing his spirit the best.

I am really sorry for your loss!  I have never lost anyone close to me so I can only imagine how hard this must be for you!  All my thoughts and sympaties to you!