100lbs down but not really celebrating

Thanks all for the support. Back is duly patted and a slight snoopy dance has been done to celebrate my 100+loss. But back on the trail cause I still need to lose more. But thank you all for not just telling me to get over it like my friends and family.

I guess the hardest part about losing weight coming  from a person with high B.M.I.  Is that my  life is not normal and   It has come from a painful place a lifetime of disappointment when come to our weight.  Who does not dream of being skinny?    The answer to that is really  fat person.   Who  just dreams of  being a  normal under two-hundred pounds.  Even as a child  I was fat.             Face it my life has been full of disappointments. When came to my weight.  And It effects  every part  of your life.  Your  Body, your emotional health,  the way people  treat you.  The respect  you get.    I  realize that been 210  for that past 6 month and that do not think.   I am  never going to be a normal weight. I never going reach a dream goal of being 180 pounds. That does mean that I am unhappy about the weight that I have lost.      I had 395  pound body on a 5'2 inch frame.  Being that heavy my body hurt everyday.  Doing everything was hard.  I new that at  35 years old.   That if I  did not have the Gastric -by- pass.  I would dead by the time I was 40.  I watch both father and my brother die young Because of their weight.  My brother died at weighing about 600 pounds.  i guessing his weight because ,He   was so big weighing him was impossible.  I guess what I am try to say.  After lifetime of disappointment when comes to our weight.  It is had to trust your self let alone other people with heart desire it can be painful.  Letting your yourself be hurt again.   I will not give up every through been broken hearted.  I am still hoping to make it 180 pounds.  I am 42 years old and I am happy with my life.  No matter what happens.

H.W. 395,  S.W. 340 , C.W. 210