Thanking God for Second Chance at Life.

Doris Cervenka
on 8/16/12 11:45 am - Ganado, TX
       I totally want to Thank God and My Doctor and My Obesity Help Friends and Partners.  Because,  I Feel like got a second chance at  new life.   Five years ago.  All I wanted to was  die.  That is how much I hated myself.  I hated every part of my life. I was almost 400 pounds and 38 years old. I hated that no matter what I did to lose weight it never worked.  I just kepted getting bigger and bigger.  My youth was wasted. To say I was in dark pit of Depression.  Does come close to how low I felt.  Having my brother die from his own weight problem only left me feeling  more hopeless. 
         I think because, Was Over- Weight since was a child. Felt like I was at war with the world .  A world that I did not fit in. I always looked at life differently and Saw people for who they were and I Judge them by the character and their actions and not their looks.   I always thought this was a good thing.  But, I learn something important.  God only has the right to Judge.  I have no right to judge any one.   Life is what is . People do thing that they regret.   Every person this earth capable of change and becoming a better person. I don,t just feel like my Life has changed.  I feel like gqt a whole new Life. My out look on Life is the truly the only thing that has changed.
           Just can't wait for things to happen to you.  You to make the change Yourself.  You have to want it enough to do the work.   A miracle surgery did not change my life.  I changed my life.  I fought my Food Addiction, Fought though my Depression and I even had to fight with my own Lazy self. Who just did not what to get up off the couch.  But, One day I  got off the lazy  couch and exercised,  I got help for myself.  One thing learned in this life.  If you want something you to fight for and Get it Yourself.   Because,  No can do it for you.
   I,m still fight every day of my life just to get under Two-hundred pounds for once in my adult life.  I live with fear every day that it will not happen. But, I am still fighting to make it there.  Because, That is where.  I want to be. With Gods help and the help of my friends and family. I know I will make it their or die trying.  It feels Wonderful to have Second Chance at Life.
happiegirl
on 8/16/12 1:10 pm - Albuquerque, NM
VSG on 04/24/12
I feel the exact same way.  I got my life back and Thank GOD for my second chance.  I'm so glad not to live in pain every day.  Plus I really have hope I can keep it off.

HW: 351 Pre-op: 272  Current: 140.7 Goal:160      M1:14 M2:14  M3:11  M4:10 M5:10  M6:12  M7:8  M8:6 M9: 6 M10:7 M11: 6 M12: 4 M13: 5 M14:7 M15: 4 M16: 3 M17: 1   M18: 4

 
"Glory lies in the attempt to reach one's goal and not in reaching it." - Gandhi
 

    

1crazy_cat_lady
on 8/16/12 9:45 pm - Winnipeg, Canada
Doris,

Thank you so much for your post. I'm still struggling, I'm on my third round with the same 10 pounds. I am doing a bariatric program in preparation for surgery and I do know that it is not a miracle. I appreciate the reminder that I am not helpless and that I have to fight myself every day to make this happen. God gives me the strength, I just have to tap into it. I'm planning to do liquids this week to try and cleanse the crap out of my system. Prayers would be much appreciated.

Congratulations on your success thus far~!
Lucky2talk2
on 8/17/12 2:45 am - Renton, WA
As I sit here reading your post, I am reflecting. I could be looking at peices of your life like a reflection in a mirror back at my life. Thank you for posting!

You are absolutely correct in that being "If you want something to happen, you are the only one that can make it happen for yourself". How bad do we want it?

We can continue to push on, fight, and conquer! I thank God to, every day, as I see still so many non scale victories! Things so simple to so many, today as I parked the car in a spot in the shade, far away from our covered parking... I thought to myself... there was a time not more than a year and a half or so ago, that I would not have even been able to walk to the covered car port. When my now husband would have to drop me off and park the car... and now look at me today, I wanted to cry when I think of all the things I can do today! I still take nothing I can do for granted. I value each and every thing I can do now for myself.
I have been down on myself through the past 3 weeks. Having went to the doctor appointment yesterday, finding out that the pain I am having is still unexplained is frustrating. But today I am feeling ok. I am still alive and kicking and will continue to. I am going to "push the envelope" and not be afraid of not making it. I may make it slower than others but that is ok! Nobody else lives inside my body.
I need to get rid of my fat thoughts. I am smaller but like today, as I stood in front of the mirror, hot with all the clothes that had on to cover the sagging hanging skin and fat... I thought... UG! Just take off the jacket and allow yourself to feel good in a tank top, pants, and no binder, no long sleeve shirt or jacket! I did wear ligter weight clothes and felt free. You see even in my own home with myself alone, I do not do this. Why? I have been working hard on the outside more than the inside of me. I think? Some days my mirrors and self are smaller and sometimes they are fat with ugly deflated mess.

But absolutely puting work into this journey is the only reason I have continued to move along in my journey. Maybe it was a divine intervention of a phone call today. It is amazing the things that can happen, God has timing! I spoke to a lady that had weight loss surgery about 10 years ago or so. She lives a few states south of me and I have seen her about 2 times in the last 10 years. It had been since right before surgery since I last talked to her. But after talking to her, I felt so good. She talked about her experiences, and what she is doing now and how she is doing with her journey still today. It was nice to hear from her out of the "sky blue".
She said that I am doing good and I will keep doing good. Amazing what it does to hear that. Confirmations sometimes just come when we so need them. I want to be able to post weight loss and success. I am the only one that can work on and make that happen!!

Every day, I generally come to the forum here. I love to read. It has been easier to post. I still post when I can or feel maybe the need.

I LOVE TO LIVE LIFE! I passed by the indoor skydiving place tonight! I WILL BE DOING THIS! I HAVE TO MAKE IT HAPPEN! I WILL MAKE IT HAPPEN!!

I AM PROUDLY A LOSER!

Doris, I know you will make it under 200 and it will be amazing!!!!!!!!

MAKE IT A GREAT DAY!!         SHERRIE <3

Phatchick
on 8/17/12 5:10 am - Brookfield, IL
VSG on 04/16/12
Hi Doris,

How true it is that this surgery is not the answer to our weight issues. It truly is the spirit inside of every one of us, that ultimately wins this battle. For me the surgery is the armor I now wear to help me win that battle. Before the surgery I just couldn't do it. Before the surgery I tried countless times, but finally gave up because I could not succeed.  Yes,  you are right, the surgery is a miracle. I thank God for it everyday. I also thank Him for the fight He has instilled in all of us to to keep trying. 

Doris, you are going to be under 200#'s. I am so excited for you!

Best,

Sharon








  

 

    

    
Doris Cervenka
on 8/18/12 6:38 am - Ganado, TX
Thank you Sharon !!!!!   I need to here that.  I only six pounds to ten pounds  But, Scale keeps play evil tricks on me. 
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