A day that I never really imagined - Onderland!
www.sexyskinnybitch.wordpress.com - my journey to sexy skinny bitch status
11/16/12 - Got my Body by Sauceda - arms, Bl/BA, LBL, thigh lift.
HW 420/ SW 335 /CW 200 
85 lbs lost pre-op / 135 post op
~~~~Alison~~~~~
Kat
Lots of 5K's, 10K's., 4 1/2 Marathons, 3 Sprint Triathlon done. 2 Olympics and my First IRONMAN 70.3 September 2013 and First Full Marathon Dec 2013 !!!!!
My blog- www.NPRunner.blogspot.com
www.sexyskinnybitch.wordpress.com - my journey to sexy skinny bitch status
11/16/12 - Got my Body by Sauceda - arms, Bl/BA, LBL, thigh lift.
HW 420/ SW 335 /CW 200 85 lbs lost pre-op / 135 post op
~~~~Alison~~~~~
Others have other journeys!
Own up to your own journey, without the shame!
You are a wonderfull person, always encouraging, welcoming and you make full of sense! So don't go into non sense by being ashamed of who you are, what you have done in your life!
I am SO happy for you for the onderland! All my best wishes on this celebration day! You deserve every moment of it!
By the way, I too understand how you feel about the 220 starting!
Karine.
Gastroscopy: May 26th 2012 SW + HW 360
Labs: May 30th 2012 Post opti 341.2
SD: June 25th 2012 Post op 338.6
www.sexyskinnybitch.wordpress.com - my journey to sexy skinny bitch status
11/16/12 - Got my Body by Sauceda - arms, Bl/BA, LBL, thigh lift.
HW 420/ SW 335 /CW 200 85 lbs lost pre-op / 135 post op
~~~~Alison~~~~~
I feel the same way about my weight, looking at myself I wonder what I have done to my body, and wonder how I got that far without reacting.
But what I meant by non sense is that we should embrace what we are, be proud of our accomplishements, as little as they are, instead on focusing on the negative feeling. I don't know, it might only be me, but I beleive that my negatives feelings for "whatever" have always brought me down to that journey I now feel ashamed off.
Well I know it probably sounds weird and I am having a hard time translating (do my best but emotions are hard to put in words of another language!)what I mean so sorry if it doesn't make sense or if I offended you
Gastroscopy: May 26th 2012 SW + HW 360
Labs: May 30th 2012 Post opti 341.2
SD: June 25th 2012 Post op 338.6
www.sexyskinnybitch.wordpress.com - my journey to sexy skinny bitch status
11/16/12 - Got my Body by Sauceda - arms, Bl/BA, LBL, thigh lift.
HW 420/ SW 335 /CW 200 85 lbs lost pre-op / 135 post op
~~~~Alison~~~~~
I just hope that all the positive responses lighten your load and that the sense of accomplishment is stronger than the the more negative feelings.
You are a truly amazing person. I so wish I was in your "neighborhood" so we could spend some time hanging out or that I was further along in my journey. I'm sure you're even more inspirational in person.
I so enjoy hearing your accomplishments and your struggles and knowing you're just very honest and real about things. It makes my tiny ups and downs more tolerable to know someone who started out the same way made it through and came out the other side to Onederland!
Keep on keeping on my friend!
Brenda~
Im just not the extreme optimist around here. I lost my rose
Colored glasses a long time ago.
www.sexyskinnybitch.wordpress.com - my journey to sexy skinny bitch status
11/16/12 - Got my Body by Sauceda - arms, Bl/BA, LBL, thigh lift.
HW 420/ SW 335 /CW 200 85 lbs lost pre-op / 135 post op
~~~~Alison~~~~~
I understand the pessimism - its a defense mechanism. When you're disappointed a lot by life or people or whatever, you get to the point where you assume the worst so that you're less disappointed when it happens and surprised when it doesn't!
And yeah - I remember being 180 in my very late teens/early 20s and thinking "I'll never go over 200!" only to find myself 25 years later and 340 (yay, I've lost 25 lbs on my own). I think back and wonder WHY I didn't stop myself then, back when I had so few pounds to lose, comparatively, and more importantly, before my arthriti****!
Ah well - I'm on the path now, following behind you!
