I think I can... I should feel the know I can....coming out of hiding...
Hello, here I am again. I have had no words that I could sit and type to a page here to post. Discusted with myself in the past few weeks. Nobody to blame but with my own self. Yes, I have reasons that I have not been able to EXCERSIZE until the last week or so. But my eating there is no excuse. I have a 6 lbs gain. The last three days have been better and really working on my focus! I seem to want to hide that I am struggling. I want to stay so positive. I have a ways to go... But do realize I have come along ways! It is so easy to give advice and I can talk myself the advice... Truely I know every bit of the choices I am making at the time that I am making them.
I have a couple of NSV's that have come about the last three days. This has put me in and on cloud nine. Big for me...ok GIANT for me!
1. I have now removed my power chair from the house.
It is no longer my power chair but rather now the garages!
This was a major one for me. My power is in my legs now!
It is in my body and mind! (even when I want to hide).
2. I have now been able to finally ride my bicycle!
Not the one inside my house that I had to ride laying on the floor.
I finally have done this!! Took pictures and videos!
Last year I fell, but sat on it before putting it away!
I said then that I would be back to it and I would ride it!!
So each day the last two I did a bit, the. The next more miles.... And today I road with my fiancé! It was wonderful, sunny, and we went 20 miles! I may be a bit sore tomorrow... But tonight I am doing ok! I really know that this whole life altering and changing ways is ways for life! I am going to come in here and post or comment. Just felt I could not lurk any longer, feeling that I just could not say anything to anyone when I felt I was failing my journey. I realize that my self pitty was not going to help. If you do not hear from me.... I have not gone, I may just be lurking and not knowing how to share my failure or struggles. But I know that I am not alone with struggle and excitement... And fear of failure!
SUCCESS WILL BE WHAT I MAKE IT!!
Thank you all for being here, it make the forum a great place to come to and be!
Hugs.
Sherrie
I have a couple of NSV's that have come about the last three days. This has put me in and on cloud nine. Big for me...ok GIANT for me!
1. I have now removed my power chair from the house.
It is no longer my power chair but rather now the garages!
This was a major one for me. My power is in my legs now!
It is in my body and mind! (even when I want to hide).
2. I have now been able to finally ride my bicycle!
Not the one inside my house that I had to ride laying on the floor.
I finally have done this!! Took pictures and videos!
Last year I fell, but sat on it before putting it away!
I said then that I would be back to it and I would ride it!!
So each day the last two I did a bit, the. The next more miles.... And today I road with my fiancé! It was wonderful, sunny, and we went 20 miles! I may be a bit sore tomorrow... But tonight I am doing ok! I really know that this whole life altering and changing ways is ways for life! I am going to come in here and post or comment. Just felt I could not lurk any longer, feeling that I just could not say anything to anyone when I felt I was failing my journey. I realize that my self pitty was not going to help. If you do not hear from me.... I have not gone, I may just be lurking and not knowing how to share my failure or struggles. But I know that I am not alone with struggle and excitement... And fear of failure!
SUCCESS WILL BE WHAT I MAKE IT!!
Thank you all for being here, it make the forum a great place to come to and be!
Hugs.
Sherrie
MAKE IT A GREAT DAY!! 
SHERRIE <3
Cloud 9 is a good place to be :)
Way to goooo on the huge NSVs - I am sooo proud of you!!
You are definitely not alone in any of this - we all understand the struggles, the fears, and the excitements :). No more lurking in the back ground!
Way to goooo on the huge NSVs - I am sooo proud of you!!
You are definitely not alone in any of this - we all understand the struggles, the fears, and the excitements :). No more lurking in the back ground!
www.sexyskinnybitch.wordpress.com - my journey to sexy skinny bitch status
11/16/12 - Got my Body by Sauceda - arms, Bl/BA, LBL, thigh lift.
HW 420/ SW 335 /CW 200 
85 lbs lost pre-op / 135 post op
~~~~Alison~~~~~
You are still an inspiration to others like me who are just starting our journey so even though you may feel like a failure, to us you are still a success. You haven't given up and what you see as a failure is just a speed bump along the way. Hurts your tail bone but you can keep on going. :-)
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((((Sweet, sweet Sherrie!)))))
I'm so thrilled for you at your NSVs! Did you really ride 20 miles??? WOW! I doubt I could get 20 ft. on a bike, much less 20 miles! You deserve to be shouting from the rooftops at that. And retiring the power chair? What a fantastic milestone!
So glad you're "back". Your voice here is one of the main reasons I like to read this board. I lurk more than I comment here (I tend to hang out on the RNY board, because I haven't had my surgery yet), but I love reading your posts about your struggles and victories, and it seems to me you have a lot more victories than you do struggles/failures! You're just amazing in your positive attitude, and I'm not sure you know how much that means to those of us who haven't been around long, and who still have lots of hard work ahead of us. I see you as Head Cheerleader around here, LOL! I don't know what your life was like in school, but I can easily see you being voted "Most Popular", "Head Cheerleader", "Homecoming Queen", and definitely "Most Beautiful".
Keep on keepin' on, LadyBug! You're the bomb!
Beth
I'm so thrilled for you at your NSVs! Did you really ride 20 miles??? WOW! I doubt I could get 20 ft. on a bike, much less 20 miles! You deserve to be shouting from the rooftops at that. And retiring the power chair? What a fantastic milestone!
So glad you're "back". Your voice here is one of the main reasons I like to read this board. I lurk more than I comment here (I tend to hang out on the RNY board, because I haven't had my surgery yet), but I love reading your posts about your struggles and victories, and it seems to me you have a lot more victories than you do struggles/failures! You're just amazing in your positive attitude, and I'm not sure you know how much that means to those of us who haven't been around long, and who still have lots of hard work ahead of us. I see you as Head Cheerleader around here, LOL! I don't know what your life was like in school, but I can easily see you being voted "Most Popular", "Head Cheerleader", "Homecoming Queen", and definitely "Most Beautiful".
Keep on keepin' on, LadyBug! You're the bomb!
Beth
Consult WT: 312 SW: 274 CW: 244
I know it's sometimes taboo to mention, but you usually seem very positive and upbeat and sometimes medicine really does help people when they're down even if it's just a temporary thing. I don't mean that to be offensive because I know some people take it that way but it's really helped me out of some dark places...
Hope you feel better.
Hope you feel better.
HW 380.8+ SW- 371.4 CW- 234.4 GW- 200 
I can so relate. I was 507 at my highest, which resulted in major mobility issues. I couldn't walk around my apartment without getting winded. My knees are shot. I have spinal stenosis which causes tremendous pain if I stand more than a minute or two. I thought that problem would ease up as I lost weight which would enable me to be more mobile and to exercise.
8.5 months post-op and 131 lbs down, and I do feel better. I don't get winded like I did. But I still have back and knee issues. I still use a walker or rollator to get around, even in my apartment. I am making small improvements - I can take the garbage to the chute without using the walker, but haven't graduated to even going to the lobby to get my mail without it yet.
I've been stalling in my weight loss of late, too. At about 5 months I started a pattern where I'd stall for two weeks, then drop 6-7 lbs. But now the stalls are stretching to 3+ weeks, and then only dropping 3-4 lbs.
I know what I should be doing, can give all the advice I know, but don't seem to be living it. I know that exercise, or even just walking to start, will kick start loss and cut back on the stalls. I really, really try to not slip back into old eating habits, but I have bad days. Staying motivated is really hard.
But I'm so tired of my fat life. I'm dying to get out and be part of life. I'm tired of my self-imposed exclusion, and know it's unrealistic that I'm going to get to where I want without hard physical work. I'm tired of making excuses because of my back and knees, but they really truly do inhibit me. I feel like its sort of a Catch-22 situation.
8.5 months post-op and 131 lbs down, and I do feel better. I don't get winded like I did. But I still have back and knee issues. I still use a walker or rollator to get around, even in my apartment. I am making small improvements - I can take the garbage to the chute without using the walker, but haven't graduated to even going to the lobby to get my mail without it yet.
I've been stalling in my weight loss of late, too. At about 5 months I started a pattern where I'd stall for two weeks, then drop 6-7 lbs. But now the stalls are stretching to 3+ weeks, and then only dropping 3-4 lbs.
I know what I should be doing, can give all the advice I know, but don't seem to be living it. I know that exercise, or even just walking to start, will kick start loss and cut back on the stalls. I really, really try to not slip back into old eating habits, but I have bad days. Staying motivated is really hard.
But I'm so tired of my fat life. I'm dying to get out and be part of life. I'm tired of my self-imposed exclusion, and know it's unrealistic that I'm going to get to where I want without hard physical work. I'm tired of making excuses because of my back and knees, but they really truly do inhibit me. I feel like its sort of a Catch-22 situation.
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