I can taste it!

I haven't been making my own OH posts lately but for some reason I really wanted to say that I feel like I'm so close to being out of the 300s(edit) that I can taste it. I am at 318 right now. I know that's still 18 pounds but since I just got out of a 10 day "stall" (my pattern and then I just drop like crazy) I think I might be able to be right around 300 in a couple of weeks... maybe a little more. Wow. From 381 to under 300 that quick. I know I'm already thinking ahead but something about seeing 318 this morning made me so happy even though it hasn't happened yet!

On another note, I was wearing my "skinny" pants yesterday and apparently they are so big on me that my friend thought they were my "fat girl" pants. I looked in the mirror and omg... they looked so huge. I was embarrassed. My shirt looked like a dress. I can't believe the pants I had pulled out of the closet that I hadn't worn for years were looking like that on me! New clothes time.

Woooooooow I'm sooooo happy for you girl! Your doing so great! You keep truckin and b4 you know it you'll be there!!!!

Thank you :) You're always my cheerleader :)

So I had bought these pants when I had lost a lot of weight once (I usually wear 28s and grew out of them but would alter them to force myself into them anyway because I just wouldn't go any sizes bigger) but the pants I had hiding in the closet (from when I was 280) were a 24 (capri things but they have a stretchy top). Anyway I pulled them out after I posted and they actually fit. Of course they were stretched t the max on the stomach part but 10 more pounds and I'll be able to rock them in public. I doubt I'll be able to even fit 26 jeans let alone 24 jeans but I didn't think I'd be able to fit the smallest thing in my closet...

Also, I went to try on these interview pants that are 28s that, in August and September, I was wearing Spanx things under and still having to wear them unbottoned, unzipped and hold them together with an elastic thing and safety pins even while I wore them high up on my stomach. They slid right up and I freakin had room to breathe and put my fingers in them even while they were on the biggest part of my stomach! No spanx on or anything. Wtf.... Now THAT showed me how far I've come!

I'm your cheerleader because through your post I can feel how happy you are and how proud of yourself you are.I think I've tld you this b4 but I remember reading post b4 you had your surgery and you always sounded sad and worried this surgery wouldn't work.And now when you talk you sound like a NEW person.You get sooo excited and in turn it gets me EXCiTED.Excited because if you could do it then we all can do it.Also what I love about you is you keep it real on here your not afraid to speak your mind to ANYONE.I myself a couple of times have not replied on some peoples stuff because I know my temper I'm soooo sweet but when I get pissed I lose myself and sometimes don't think b4 I type lol[not good] I've seen you stick up 4 people on here when other people think some peoples post are stupid or whatever. I don't think ANY question should be stupid. You keep up what your doing and girl you'll be wearin all kinds of new things by summer.you'll see ill have faith in you and you know what?? You now have faith IN YOURSELF..!!!YOU CAN DO IT....!!!!!!!

 I remember the day I saw 299 on the scale :)  Freaking amazing !!  


You will be there soon enough!

My mom weighs in the lower 200s and she was like "**** we're going to be sharing clothes soon!"

I attempted to go clothes shopping today but it made me cry so I left! Guess no new clothes for me!

This is one crazy journey isn't it! You will have some dizzy highs and some seriously deep lows, but it will all be worth it in the end. You are doing a great job, just keep on keeping on and you'll see 299 before you know it!

Have you bought some goal or mini-goal pants? I remember I picked up a pair of 16 jeans that I kept trying to get my butt into. It took many months, and now even though they are too big- I still wear them all the time because of the special significance they have!

Keep it up,
:Danni

You are very right about the deep lows. Despite the great feeling of realizing I'll be in the 200s soon, the clothes shopping experience was very bad today. I've also been having to truly experience how much I depended on food to soothe my emotions during stressful times. I haven't stress eaten yet but I am dealing with a devastating break up (4 years and it is dragging on), I just found out that I have to come up with $800 a month for the next 10 years to pay my student loans when I already barely scrape by and don't buy anything extra or even have cable or anything like that as it is, I am battling with major drama at work,  I can't use my $100,000 education in this economy AND I came to the realization that I put myself $100,000 into debt for a career (that I haven't started yet) that is absolutely not for me and now I need to start my educational path over so I can pursue a career that I can be happy and successful in (which will cost more money.)

The worst parts are not having my boyfriend and feeling like a failure and not being able to figure out my future. I feel devastated and alone and hopeless and I don't have any friends and I CAN'T EAT A ****** BURRITO!!!! I've been seriously debating smoking weed or getting drunk or SOMETHING because I don't know how to deal with the emotions. It's overwhelming. Beyond overwhelming. It was one thing when I could hide behind 2 big mac meals every night but now I have my water and 2 oz chicken that tastes nasty and I have to feel every emotional and every ounce of missing my ex and every worry of a hopeless future. Ugh.

Ok that was me getting side tracked. i know this was supposed to be a positive thread but when you mentioned deep lows it just made me type.

I can absolutely understand where you are coming from. You are now being forced to deal with emotions that you have been trying to suppress. Sure you could go under the influence of something, but ya know what happens when you sober up? All your crap is still there.



Personally, I journal, vent to my loved ones or strangers, exercise, and strech to deal with all my ****e. I hope you can find a healthy coping mechanism to deal with all if your stressors.



I also find it easier, if I remember to break big things down into smaller chunks, so they are more manageable.



Hang in there, it does get better,

D

Each victory seemed like it was like it was never going to get here..... And BAM it is!!!

You will get the taste very soon!!


Out of the three hundreds to dose hundreds !!!


Hugs,
Sherrie