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Did my before pics tonight.  I knew I was big.  But looking at those pics tonight I wanted to cry.  I know these will be my last fat pictures.  I look at the pics and wonder how did I get to this point.  I do know one bite at a time.  I try not to get angry with myself thinking of all the things I missed because of my weight.  One of my best friends from high school was here over the summer and I didn't want to see her.  I was too embarrassed because of my weight gain. 

I am looking on the bright side.  I start my new life on Monday. 

Totally normal to feel like that. I know I did and still do. I've heard it takes a while for the head to catch up regarding body image. Good luck on Monday. We'll save you room on the losers bench.

The one thing I wish I had was a good set of before pics - I only have 2 pics (of just my head) from when I was 420 lbs. I have a couple from around 380 or so, but I wish I had some. I just wasnt willing to go in front of a camera, so my loss.

I think the feelings are normal. Just remember this moment along your journey so help keep you going. When you lose the sense of desperation and become a little more complacent, sometimes it's easy to lose focus, but

Good luck to you!!!

Talula,

May be hard to believe, but I believe you may someday be proud of the before pics. Not proud of how you looked of felt, but proud that you had the strength to take action.

Have a good journey, and keep us posted. We are all cheering you on.

 I haven't done any official before pics, I guess I should. I do have plenty of me, just nothing full body both front and side.  I told my husband this morning I want to take measurements so I have a starting point. 

Good luck tomorrow!

Talula,

I doubt there is anyone out in this great big world that hasn't wanted to cry when they saw their photo, and that includes folks with normal BMIs.  Having the COURAGE to face where you currently are is what REALLY matters, so congrats on facing the camera!

I have LOTS of photos of me at my largest, but I am also fairly weird.  I have to say, having lots of photos also gave me the opportunity to see when I started really gaining weight, and it made me realize it has been a DECADE since I was my present size.

Hang in there, and know this -- in a year from now, you will be crying tears of joy!!!!  HUGS!!!

Brenda : )~