Letting myself get bummed out

i'm pretty much there right now. I've lost almost 130 lbs, and I'm still FAT. I'm barely under 300 lbs.

But I feel much better than I thought I would when I was starting. There are days I wake up and think "damn I look good" and others, I avoid all mirrors at all costs. But, overall, it still feels amazing to be free of all that weight.  I just ran up (yes ran) three flights of stairs and not even a little out of breath! There's no way I could have crawled up those stairs last year.

I do not see myself ever being a normal size. I don't know what that'd be like so I can't imagine it. That's my goal, but I honestly just have to take it one day at a time. I don't think about my ultimate goal - it's baby steps.