Getting closer and getting scared

I figure it this way with starting BMI of 62 (now 58)  I am going to die a slow miserable death infront of my young children if I don't do this and I and they deserve a me that is healthy.  Before coming to obesityhelp boards I had 8 friends that have had RNY and there have been very few problems.  Am I nervous yes, EXCITED YES  like a little kid on christmas eve.