7 days until 11 months out
Update: Hmmm. I guess I will say what I say every month. I have a food addiction. I wake up thinking of food, I think of food before eating, while eating and after eating. My PCP has prescribed my a anti depressant which I think may help with the food preoccupation. It was prescribed 2 weeks ago, but I have not picked it up from the pharmacy yet. I guess I had not decided to take it until today. She said that weight gain may be a side effect. Lord knows I don't need that!! I have made little progress in the last five months. In the past month I have fluctuated between 231 and 225 lbs. Actually, my highest weight was 325 lbs so that is 100 lbs down from my highest weight. The problem is this is very hard. Whoever said having WLS is the easiest way out is a f&^*ing liar. I could make a bunch of excuses for why I am not closer to my goal but the truth is they are just that, excusses. This morning I weighed in at 225lbs and I want to be sure not to go above that again. Despite all the stress in my life I need to love myself enough to put everything into this. This is really a lifestyle.
Size: Before surgery I was wearing the largest size in the plus size stores (28-30) and they were a snug fit. Today I comfortably wear 18s but can fit some 14s and a lot of 16s. I hadn't been able to shop in a regular clothing store as an adult! This is major! I am not sure which size I wanna be, but I know I am still very dissatisfied with my body. In fact, my body looks exactly as it did 100 lbs heavier. I still have a huge stomach that covers my female parts. I still look 6 months pregnant and need to wear a girdle every day although I don't. I might be thrilled if I were comfortable in a size 12 or 14.
Good: Everymorning I race my 5 year old son from the car to his school. I couldn't have done that a year ago. I spent my day off painting my den. When I tryed to paint a room at 325 lbs I was exhausted and I gave up quickly. I am now noticed by men and even flirted with often. I wear make up every day now. I feel beautiful most of the time. I have more confidence to speak up and be seen. I am not as embarrassed by all of my excess fat.
Goals: I would really like to be down to 214 lbs by October 26th (my 1 year surgiversary)...its only 11 lbs in a little over a month. This is my final answer. Without a goal, one wonders aimlessly!
To the Newbies: It gets frustrating. The surgery is on your stomach and not your brain. I will look into that brain surgery though, lol. I would do it again in a second. Meanwhile I will begin to work this marvelous tool again. The beauty of it all is you get another opportunity everyday.
Size: Before surgery I was wearing the largest size in the plus size stores (28-30) and they were a snug fit. Today I comfortably wear 18s but can fit some 14s and a lot of 16s. I hadn't been able to shop in a regular clothing store as an adult! This is major! I am not sure which size I wanna be, but I know I am still very dissatisfied with my body. In fact, my body looks exactly as it did 100 lbs heavier. I still have a huge stomach that covers my female parts. I still look 6 months pregnant and need to wear a girdle every day although I don't. I might be thrilled if I were comfortable in a size 12 or 14.
Good: Everymorning I race my 5 year old son from the car to his school. I couldn't have done that a year ago. I spent my day off painting my den. When I tryed to paint a room at 325 lbs I was exhausted and I gave up quickly. I am now noticed by men and even flirted with often. I wear make up every day now. I feel beautiful most of the time. I have more confidence to speak up and be seen. I am not as embarrassed by all of my excess fat.
Goals: I would really like to be down to 214 lbs by October 26th (my 1 year surgiversary)...its only 11 lbs in a little over a month. This is my final answer. Without a goal, one wonders aimlessly!
To the Newbies: It gets frustrating. The surgery is on your stomach and not your brain. I will look into that brain surgery though, lol. I would do it again in a second. Meanwhile I will begin to work this marvelous tool again. The beauty of it all is you get another opportunity everyday.
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