Doing it on my own

Ten years ago I hit the wall and decided I needed to lose or get surgery. I was very fearful of surgery. I started working out and eating per the atkins plan. I lost 120 lbs that way. The problem was that I did not have the education or support system in place to maintain it.  Looking back now I can see that. At the time my diet restrictions were very severe and I worked out 1-1/2 hr per day. When I finally couldn't keep up I went off track and never made it back. Then I found my self gaining that 120 back plus 60 more. I often wonder if I am making the right decision now.  In any case you can lose without. So far I have lost over 50lbs just applying the diet plan the NUT gave me.

Thank you all so much for the feedback!  I must admit that I am feeling pretty overwhelmed today. I didn't get a lot of sleep last night and boy, can I sure tell today!!  My depression is seriously out of control!! I am hoping that a good night's sleep tonight will rein it back in.  See, that is the route of my problem.  I am an emotional eater who just happens to be an emotional person.  I think Fat ******* from the Austin Powers movies said it best "I eat because I am sad and I am sad because I eat".  When I don't think about dieting or losing weight my depression is controlled but as soon as I start thinking about starting at it again, the depression spirals out of control.  While I type this the tears are flowing.  Anyway, enough with the pity party!  I promise that not all of my posts will be downers!!! 

Thanks again.  It is nice to know that there are people out there who truly understand what it is like to be obese and desperate to not be!!