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peggy76
on 3/31/10 12:31 pm - girardville, PA

i love all the advice that was given here.. an its all true ur not alone.. we're all just a click away.. i dont say much lately myself for same reasons i didnt want to let anyone down to admit i had fallen of track since my husbands heart attack in December.. my life has been upside down in good an bad ways since then an i once again turned to food.. in the stressful situations.. like u anything i knew i shouldnt have i couldnt stop eating.. luckily i havent regained but the loss has totally stalled..i started seeing a therapist 2 weeks ago an it will be on a regular basis.. twice a month for now.. even after just one session i felt better.. therapy isnt for everyone... but i believe as was said about its a nessacery tool for me just as was the surgery... an u cant dwell on falling off im glad we both got up an are working the tool again.... we are human we make mistakes but we have the strength to say hey i screwed up.. i know i can do better then this.... an move up an on.... as was also said above... this is the place to come in the hardest times... to help us get through... hugs everyone....

kearstyn
on 4/3/10 11:07 am - Wilton, IA

aprilrose: I am now 6 months out and have found myself in the same perdiciment. I eat sugar and I know I shouldnt. Its easter and its hard for me to pass up the candy my son brings home. It is soooo scary to think that I can ruin all my progress that I have done so far. Im scared beyond belief and I have no one to really talk to about it. My BF doesnt understand the "mind" cravings. Im not sure what to do. I know that for the last 6 weeks I have only lost 4 pounds. I am so scared that I ruined it already. I know I AM A FOOD ADDICT and I will stand in front of god and the whole world and let them know but im not sure how to control myself. I was doing so well up until 4 weeks ago when I found out that I do NOT dump. I wish I would have never tested that theory. I feel like crap if I eat too much sugar but it doesnt stop me. Im so scared. Im crying as I write this. My heart says that I have failed myself.

Kearstyn

aprilrose_39
on 4/3/10 9:47 pm

RNY on 07/30/09

My heart aches for you. I know what your going thru and I know all the terrible things your saying to yourself. Your not alone. All of us here face this one time or another on this weight loss journey. It's not failure, its a stumble. We can recover from it. Think back to what made you make the final decision to have the surgery. Concentrate on that when you want to eat something you know you shouldnt. I'm not saying it will work everytime, but it will help. I ate M&M's yesterday..the whole little bag..but thats all the sugar I ate yesterday. I had some control but it sure wasnt all I wanted. I could have eaten the cookies, and the ice cream that are here in my house. But I thought back to when I wasd 423lbs...I thought about all the progress I've made, all the sacrefices I've made because of this surgery. And I thought about how I want to live the rest of my life. Didnt stop me from wanting to eat, but it made it easier to walk away and find something else to do.
I'm here, when you need an ear to listen. I understand your fears, and I will help you as much as I can. I'm seriously thinking about getting some counsiling for the food addiction. It's a scary thing to be addictted to something you have to have to live. I want control over it and I want to understand why I have no control over it.
My name is April, and my email addy is [email protected] me anytime.
April

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