Hello everyone :)
Well, I had lap band surgery back in 2008, April...and as of now I am at my starting weight :( This is my fault I know. I am having major motivation issues. I mean, I KNOW I need to exercise but everytime I do I get discouraged because it hurts and I can't hardly do anything it seems, other then a small bit of walking. My biggest issue though is the psychological end.
I am addicted to food. I find myself eating not because my belly is hungry, but because my brain is hungry..and its such a hard compulsion to fight. Sometimes I catch myself eating before it even sinks in that I am. Its embarassing and it makes me so angry with myself. I had this surgery so that I could change my life and lose the weight, but it seems like I have defeated myself. I have no medical insurance right now, and haven't for a year, so I can't even go and talk to my surgeon about whats going on. Its frustrating.
I just got two boston terrier puppies, and they are three months old now. I've decided to try and walk them for a little bit everyday, both to try and get my own lazy butt going and to get them leash trained and active. I'm tired of being so big and pissed at myself for not following my program like I was supposed to but now I want to get back on track. I guess I just feel a bit overwhelmed right now though, as I know I have a long long way to go and no real support here from either friends or family. I came back to obseity help to see what other folks in a similar spot are doing and to re motivate myself to get it in gear and kick the food addiction!
...Sorry bout the little rant I had going here, but I had to get some of that out methinks :)
~Ky
I am addicted to food. I find myself eating not because my belly is hungry, but because my brain is hungry..and its such a hard compulsion to fight. Sometimes I catch myself eating before it even sinks in that I am. Its embarassing and it makes me so angry with myself. I had this surgery so that I could change my life and lose the weight, but it seems like I have defeated myself. I have no medical insurance right now, and haven't for a year, so I can't even go and talk to my surgeon about whats going on. Its frustrating.
I just got two boston terrier puppies, and they are three months old now. I've decided to try and walk them for a little bit everyday, both to try and get my own lazy butt going and to get them leash trained and active. I'm tired of being so big and pissed at myself for not following my program like I was supposed to but now I want to get back on track. I guess I just feel a bit overwhelmed right now though, as I know I have a long long way to go and no real support here from either friends or family. I came back to obseity help to see what other folks in a similar spot are doing and to re motivate myself to get it in gear and kick the food addiction!
...Sorry bout the little rant I had going here, but I had to get some of that out methinks :)
~Ky
Hi Ky,
I haven't had a lapband, so I can't comment on that experience, but I wanted to say WELCOME and that I hope you post here regularly. Regardless of what type of surgery, or whether you've even had surgery, those that are/have been with a BMI over 50 are all welcome here. It's a great bunch :)
I have seen a number of folks post about starting with the band, but getting a revision to RNY or DS down the road. Of course insurance issues make that pretty difficult :(
I too am a food addict - started at 380 and am sitting around 295 currently. I don't think my relationship with food will ever be "normal" - I'll have to remain diligent, plan, and be aware enough of my own emotional/physical needs to not have to rely on food to cope with anything and everything.
Anyway, keep posting and take it one day at a time. You're not the only one that has had this experience, so keep hanging out here and be good to yourself.
Best,
Michelle
I haven't had a lapband, so I can't comment on that experience, but I wanted to say WELCOME and that I hope you post here regularly. Regardless of what type of surgery, or whether you've even had surgery, those that are/have been with a BMI over 50 are all welcome here. It's a great bunch :)
I have seen a number of folks post about starting with the band, but getting a revision to RNY or DS down the road. Of course insurance issues make that pretty difficult :(
I too am a food addict - started at 380 and am sitting around 295 currently. I don't think my relationship with food will ever be "normal" - I'll have to remain diligent, plan, and be aware enough of my own emotional/physical needs to not have to rely on food to cope with anything and everything.
Anyway, keep posting and take it one day at a time. You're not the only one that has had this experience, so keep hanging out here and be good to yourself.
Best,
Michelle
Hi-welcome to OH! This is a great place to find support-especially since you don't have any available to you from your friends and family. You will learn a lot and get support and motivation from many I'm sure!
I think many of us have the head troubles and they are very hard to deal with at times! We had surgery on our body-not our minds-so we are still thinking as we did before surgery.
I know you said you don't have insurance-but couldn't you call your surgeons office for some suggestions? They might be able to help you a little over the phone-it's worth a try. Best wishes to you!
I think many of us have the head troubles and they are very hard to deal with at times! We had surgery on our body-not our minds-so we are still thinking as we did before surgery.
I know you said you don't have insurance-but couldn't you call your surgeons office for some suggestions? They might be able to help you a little over the phone-it's worth a try. Best wishes to you!
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