very moody on pre-op diet

I have been really moody the past three days . . . and I am getting nervous as all get out about this surgery and whether I will be able to stay hydrated while also taking diuretics.

I find myself a little snippy about silly things. Someone posted that she has lost 25 pounds so far on her diet and that posted a picture saying "Don't I look Hot?" I was thinking if 25 pounds made that much of a difference for me, it would be nice. I haven't changed any sizes because I am so big I dress in sloppy loose clothing. Is it looser with 68 pounds lost, yes, but I doubt your average would Joe/Jo would realize that I lost much of anything, certainly not as much as I have.

I am also worrying about my kids. I have to leave them home for 3 days with grandparents, but what if I don't come back? One if I am the one in 100?

Is it normal to start freaking out?!? I look at foods and think I can never eat that again . . . but that is about the only reason I think I want it (does that make sense -- I feel like maybe I should indulge one last time . . . last supperish).

I would really love to hear from others who had some pre-op jitters along with the excitement at possibly losing much of the extra weight (I am not even looking for skinny, I am looking for comfortable enough to breath, move, etc.)

Preop jitters are totally normal. You're looking at making a drastic change in your life -- "moody" "snippy" are lightweight compared to where I was. I am surprised my husband would even get in a car with me -- I was either crying or angry the whole two weeks of my preop diet.

You need to ask your doc about the diuretics. If they don't want people drinking coffee because "it's a diuretic," I would question taking your prescription lasix (or whatever it is).

1 in a 100 versus X in a 100 staying super morbidly obese. I think X is pretty high. Try to look at it from that way. ((HUGS))

I can now eat most everything I could preop. Some stuff just doesn't appeal anymore.

The only thing I can't do like I did preop is stuff my face until I'm ready to explode (the food-makes-me-feel-better-about-whatever-is-bugging-me thing).

Seriously, one last supper is okay. A six month tour (like me) is not.

Take care.

Moody: Perfectly normal will probably get worse then watch out because you will be on cloud nine and full of more energy then you will know what to do with.

Try not to judge yourself against others by weight loss and size once you get going you will see how much better you feel and can judge by that instead of clothing sizes.  I lost 60 pounds and still wore the same size when I started.  The smaller you get then the sizes go faster too. 

I have small children too.  The day before surgery someone felt the need to tell me how dangerous she felt the surgery was.  My response was that I had a 100% chance of dying with an obesity related illness vs the lest than 10% chance by having surgery to fix those co morbidity's.  To me it was worth the risk.  (I recently saw a funeral procession and thought OMG if I die today I can actually FIT in a casket...LOL)  Yes I am a bit morbid LOL

Never say never.  I didn't think I would ever eat alot of things I eat now I just am happy with a bit or two.  My kiddos had McDonald's tonight and I had three fries and was happy!!!!  Before I would have eaten a large fry and small fry and a burger and nuggets.  

You will start feeling the effects of the weight loss fairly soon.  You had mentioned that you can breath better already.  It feels so good to be able to actually run up stairs and not feel like you are dying.  You are making a choice that is literally going to save your life!!!!! 

I hope I haven't ranted too much. LOL

I totally remember the grieving I did during the pre op liquids. Good grief; it was like someone died. On day 3 I couldn't even drag myself to work I was so undone. I had a caffeine withdrawal headache, but it was just an excuse as my REAL problem was that I was falling apart emotionally. Hang in there.

I actually did NOT worry about the surgery itself. Don't take your emotions TOO seriously as they may vary quite a bit at this time. If you start dropping some major poundage before surgery, it will cheer you right up. I kind of got all FREE and happy since I didn't have to battle food anymore. I felt good after a while and broth NEVER tasted so YUMMY.

I still take Lasix as I have high blood pressure and swelling in my ankles and I stay hydrated just fine post op. I didn't take it the day of my surgery.

Try to keep your mind busy with a good book or something and you will be GOOD to GO.

I guess I needed to dig myself into a hole for a couple of days, but I am feeling better now. I have been reducing my insulin levels so that I am not quite so low late in the day and that is helping. I seem to crash emotionally in the evening and I can't help but think it must be related to my diabetes.

I have been following the pre-op diet to the letter and I am feeling a little bit better since I have lost another 3 pounds and at least now I know I will show some kind of loss between my pre-op and my surgery weigh ins. That stress is (mostly) behind me.

I have one friend *****ally thinks WLS is wrong and I have been waiting to tell her for ages, and it stopped me from reaching out to a larger group of friends as well. I told her a couple of days ago via email and she hasn't replied, so I decided to let go of that and "come out" to my friends about my decision. I do think it is a very personal one and not for everyone, but is the right one for me. It will help me get my life back and be a better advocate for my children.

Thanks for all the support and please keep up positive thoughts and prayers because I know they help. Only 10 days to go and I can join the losers bench :)