scales are moving but at a snails pace but I am in pain..

I weighed today.. Monday my weekly weigh in day.. I weighed in at 228.2.. Finally some movement .. not too much but that is better than the stand still...So I am almost right at the 75lbs lost mark.. yippee..

I will do my measurements on the 23rd, the anniversary of the surgery.. I have decided to only do this once a month so the surgery date is the easiest to remember..

I was afraid to weigh because the last couple of days I was not able to walk on the treadmill or do much of anything. I am down in my back and barely walking as it is.. I guess I have overdone.. I am nursing two baby goats.. one born the 7th and the other the 17th.. bending over to get them out of the playpen to feed them the bottle and to clean the palypen.. (the little stinkers)..has not been easy..   I also have been trying to walk everyday a little farther on the treadmill.  I have been doing a lot of laundry with the goats and all and I had a lot of other laundry to do too since I was so far behind since the surgery.. .. but getting the wet towels out of the washer was what I think did me in.. I have been taking the liquid pain med I was sent home on.. I didnt take any for the surgery, but I was so thankful I had it to take now.. Today is a little better.. I have not been on here the past couple of days because I could not sit too long, stand too long or lay too long.. My hubby actually had to take off work today to help me.. I can't dress myself or make my meals or feed the goats.. (he hatted that job.) ..

Please keep me in your thoughts tomorrow.. He has to go to work tomorrow, we can not afford him to be off. I am going to be on my own.. My daughter is right next door.. well 1/4 mile down the road.. she is my closest neighbor.. my mom can come help if I need and I had a wonderful offer from a  great friend today to just call her if I need her.. that was so nice.. but she lives 60 miles away.. I would hate her to have to drive this far.. but I know she would.. I am going to try to just take it very easy tomorrow.. nothing to do but rest the back,  the biggest challenge may be getting out of the bed.. it took me 30 minutes to get out this morning and that was with help.. maybe tomorrow will be better.. I am not getting up when hubby does at 3am.. a little too early for me..  . Well I am off of here  ,  sitting too long.. pain is getting to me.. I'll try to stay in touch.. I care about all of you and I will be right there to support you if I can...  If you miss me you know it is becasue I am resting..   hope to be back soon..

I am sorry to hear about your back, very good thing you have some pain medicine to help.  Thinking of you back on your feet feeling great soon!!!

Thank you.. I sure hope I am up on my feet and back to normal soon.. I feel worse not being able to walk on the treadmill.. I feel good after walking.. a natural high of sorts..

Yes I thank God I had the liquid pain meds.. and I thank God for today I have not had to take any...

Theresa, I'm so sorry you are having back pain. I hope it goes away soon. I had a protruded disc once and the BAAAADDDD pain only lasted 3 or 4 days, but I need physical therapy for a few weeks before I was completely well. Take it easy. I don't think it's time to push yourself on the treadmill or around the house. You will get back faster if you take some time to heal.

I'm glad the scale is moving downward, even if it's slowly. I'm looking forward to 50 lbs off soon. Congrats on 75!! We will be new STRONGER women SOON (but have to make allowances for our slightly AGING bodies!! ) Your body is telling you to REST right now.

Baby goats, huh? That's kind of cool.

I am feeling better each day.. I am trying to take it easy.. I keep dropping everything I try to hold on to and the bending is the worse.. so at night when hubby gets home he has to go around and pick up after me like a little kid.. but I know better than  to try to pick it all up.. I have a long handle grabber I use for high things since I am only 4'10" and it has come in handy for light things I drop..

Yes this old body is not up to doing too much too fast.. I have lost enough to feel good and to try to do more things now.. but I have to remember that while the weight coming off and will help my back it will never cure it.. I have a severe grade 3 spondylolisthesis wiith a failed back surgery.. I have to remember my limitations..

Yes baby goats.. They are so preciuos but such dumb animals.. They pee and poop and then lay in it.. yuck.. even puppies dont do that.. well most puppies.. lol.. so it has been fun not being able to bend over to clean them.. I just keep adding clean animal towels over the dirty ones.I was taking them out and keeping the pen clean and doing lots of laundry all day but I acant right now..so I have to be fast tin adding clean towels to keep them from laying down in poop.. diaper wipes work great on them to get the poop and such off of them and their feet.. .. well it did before this back acted up.. so hubby has another new job at night.. he hates it but he does it for me because of my love of animals.. I will be glad when they get weaned and go back outside though.. I think I will add a couple of pictures to my home page of the babies for all to see for a few days.. they are 10 days apart but the same size .. Tipper was a runt and barley made it.   look for the pictures.. they are so so cute..

I've never been around little goats. That would be a little frustrating to have them all poop covered. I'll bet they are adorable. My daughter is a real animal lover. She's a vegetarian she feels so strongly about it.

I didn't know you had a failed back surgery. I'm so sorry. So this flare up is nothing new to you. I hope you get better soon. I don't have a grabber yet, but I need one. I have a wooden cane with a hook and I use it to scoot things closer so I can reach them.

I'm DEFINITELY an old lady, though, because I notice that I have wadded up half used Kleenex all over the place. I don't throw them away because I just blew my nose a little and they are "still good".  I'm not tucking them in my sleeves yet, but I'm sure that will happen soon.

Take care of yourself and tell your hubby we are grateful he's on poop patrol for you until you can recover.

Well hubby had to go on a long run tonight and wont get home.. so I am on poop patrol.. I let the side down on the play pen and scooped them up and off to the tub.. while they were playing in there I got the pen cleaned.. took awhile.. then bathed the little buggers and back to the playpen all nice and clean and the first thing they did was squat and pee right in the middle of the new towels.. AUUGH>>> oh well I got it out and gave them a new clean bed,, they do not get fed again now til morning.. so maybe no more messes..

Yes Rhonda.. the back pain is nothing new to me.. I have taken 10mg of Vicadin for pain most of my adult life.. I try not to take it unless I am so bad I cant move.. I am not addicted yet.. thank God.. SO it has to be really bad pain for that to get taken.. they only gave me 7.5 in the liquid  form so it doesn't work as well but takes the edge off anyway..

I just have to keep reminding myself that the back will not be cured and the limitations I have with it will always be here..   I hate that , but I am thankful to not have to use a wheel chair anymore.. I was in a wheel chair before the back surgery.. thus the weight gain.. and after I got out of the wheel chair  I got too overwhelmed in trying to do too much and went back to work after not working in over 10 years..   2 out of the 4 screws they put in my back broke in half.. .. the bad thing was the surgery at the time was still experimental and they did not know to fuse the spine.. so it was on the move again.. the spine continues to move back and forth and will never allow a true fusion.. a lot of scar tissues have formed and now arthritis has set in.. they would not attempt to go in to fix the surgery, because with all the added problems and pain after the surgery I gained more weight,  and now was over the limit for the surgery.. so here I am .. 15 years later and still I have a 25 lb weight limit.. I am not suppose to vacuum or sweep or do any twisting motions.. That will always be.. I found out I had spondylolisthesis when I was in 8th grade..so I have suffered with it almost my whole life..

So as I loose weight and feel better and feel like I can do anything, I have to remember my limitations.. and if I forget.. well my back will remind me .. and I will have to stop doing...for days if not weeks.. so here I am once again in pain waiting for the back to say ok you can go again.. .. its my own fault.. I know better than to do heavy loads of laundry.. I know better than to do anything that requires a lot of bending. like the baby goats.. but my love of animals prevents me from giving up on them.. if I had left them outside they would be dead.. so I am paying for it.. but I will get the reward later.. they are growing and now I don't have to get them out and hold them in my lap to feed them.. all I have to do is sit in my chair by the playpen and hold the bottles for them..so much easier now.. just if I could figure out how to keep them clean without bending so much.. as they get older the poop will get more solid and it will get better.. and I will be proud of them when they are running around in the field with the adults having a great time learning to jump and climb and see new things..

ok I have wrote too much as usual.. off to bed for me.. morning will be here fast and crying babies wanting to eat.. lol 

Wow, you've been dealing with a back problem since 8th grade?. Sounds like it's been harsh. I'm glad you have your little baby animals to distract  you. I'm sure the balance between taking strong pain meds and not wanting to get addicted is a hard one to deal with on a daily basis. I admire that you are so positive given how long your back has been a huge issue. The one time I had the protruded disc, I was laying on the floor thinking, "if your back hurts, it affects EVERYTHING". I hope God will give you extra wisdom to know when you have reached your limit of activity and help you feel good about backing off. You will need extra patience..