unnecessary whining...

I have to go get weighed today for month 2 of my PRE op diet. I do not know what's going on but
I am so itchy everywhere and I can't stop scratching so IM covered in red marks.  I am also very paranoid and everytime I itch I think it means Im gaining fat.   The biggest support person in my life
whom I love dearly has been hospitalized for the past month (home now thankfully but almost died from his rny complications) I feel like my eating slipped a lot and I dont WANT to go get weighed but I HAVE to. lol   I do like knowing that even when I feel like I'm eating bad it's nothing at all compared to how I was eating a few months ago...I used to have constant pain and I learned it is my gall bladder talking to me telling me not to eat this long list of things. LOL  I eat much better and my gall bladder stays quiet.

I'm feeling down about how long I have to go to get my surgery still. I thought 6 months would fly by but its crawling!  There is still no guarantee that I'll even be approved....I wont know until the 6 months is done since I cant apply for it until then. 4 more months to go.  I have actually lost almost 20 pounds.... well, unless I gained this last month (I dont own a scale). I feel a lot better already but I am always disappointed when I look in a mirror. I hope next year at this time I will be able to  look into a mirror and not feel so disappointed.

oh and its 4am ..holy moly 5am now...and I cannot sleep....I thikn I'm gettign sick.

"I will work hard and be patient" is your signature line - but you are finding it isn't that easy.  I know how you feel.  Sometimes you want things right now, but waiting is tough.  This time will go by and it will at times crawl, but when you get there you'll forget all that and move forward in your new life!  All the best during the tough wait.

well  ..Ive actually had a MUCH improved morning suddenly!

I dd go in for my weigh in and I lost 13 pounds this month which is 20 pounds overall... oh my good for me! YAY


plus...  I got hit on BIG time...  this really good looking man was going on and on about how desirable I am etc.. it was awkward and stuff but still....  I cant help but smile. LOL

Congrats.. 20 lbs is a great accomplishment..  weight loss before sugery is not easy.. You are doing great..  see we do not always know by how we feel if we lost or gained.. don't stess out so much about the numbers unless your insurance or doctor is pushing for a certain amount of weight loss. The surgery will be there to help you loose more..

Getting hit on can really make you feel good.. huh.. just be careful.. there are a lot of guys out there that are ready to take advantage of you.. don't be fooled by a smile and a nice comment.. use your head and think and be careful. You'll have a lot of compliments coming and will be hit on many more times so use your head.. just trying to look after you..  but it will make you smile alot.. enjoy it... lol

Sorry to hear your friend has been so sick. I am glad they are doing better.. You will always have friends on here to turn to when you need them too...

Glad you're doing well with the preop diet! (Actually, kind of jealous!)

And the hitting on thing -- pure gravy!

please don't say gravy! LOL

he was SO good looking.... and so married too  *rolls eyes*

but still a stranger telling you how fabulous and beautiful you are...  that's still good! lol
I did of course say Thanks, but no thanks.. LOL