unstuck

 Well- I had not posted my weight since October because....welll....I had gained and gone back up to 290.  Well Thanksgiving has come and gone and as of this AM I am down to 278...meaning I have lost 197 pounds since I started this journey.  It is still hard for me to see the full affect of the change and part of me really needs feedback from my family with out me asking for it and that just does not seem to be coming.  My cousins and Aunt and Uncle really acknowleged my weightloss and have been very supportive.  I am feeling good about my progress tonight but still a bit intimidated by how much more I have to loose and the 1 yr anniversary is looming after which is will likely get harder to continue the weightloss at the pace I have gotten used to.  

I am still having pain in my stomach when I eat or drink.  I had a Cat Scan on 11/23 which was all normal.  No answers.  Next stop is a colonoscopy on 12/9 that I am so not looking forward to.  I do hope we will find an answer soon, I am so sick of feeling this way!   I guess at least I have broken through my stall with a 12 pound weightloss and am headed in the right direction again.  

I also had a great moment when trying on some clothing my cousin had given me over the Thanksgiving break.  I HAVE A REAL PAIR OF JEANS BUTTON AND ZIPPER AND ALL!!! I was walking on cloud nine wearing them to work today.  It felt great to wear something as simple as a pair of jeans to make me feel "normal" even though I am still offically Morbidly obese at least my BMI is down to 44- last year at this time it was 76.5 so I guess I have made significant progress.  It is weird how hard it is for me to see the change. 

Now I have a head cold so my head hurts, my ears, runny nose, sore throt on top of the stomach pain,and lets not forget those monthly cramps and my plantar faciatitius.  No wonder I feel grumpy!  

All for now, happy dancing my way off to bed to dream of further sucess on this journey and looking forward to the day when I can look at myself in the miror and say I look great!  I know I need to start saying that now--but ___still see so much fat!  

All for now.
  

Congratulations on your breakthrough!    I understand the fear of seeing your weight loss slow down after the one year mark, but look how far you've come!  Wow! Almost 200 pounds gone forever!  That's wonderful! 

I'm pre-op, so I have no words of wisdom backed up by experience.  I would just say that maybe you should pull out some before pictures and really appreciate how far you've come.  As cruddy as you feel right now, imagine how you'd feel if everything were the same AND you weighed your pre-op weight. 

Chin up!

JEANS!!  Wow!   That is great.  I know you feel grumpy because of not feeling so good, so let it go for now.  Focus on what works.  You are an absolute inspiration to this newbie!!!

 Thank you ladies, you are both right remaining focused on the positive is the way to go.  Down another 2.5 today and have a colonoscopy scheduled for next week so I am sure I will exceed the 200# lost this next week.  I really need to put some before and after pics side by side to realize what I have achieved.  Thanks for the support and encouragement!