I want 5 more months to FLY by! lol

yea many of us have been here I know...  I am 1 month down 5 to go before I can have my paperwork submitted for my WLS... you know that 6 month DR supervised diet thing...I started my first month really rough I wasnt in a good place mentally.  I ended my month in MUCH better mental health and I lost 5 pounds for month 1... nothing spectacular but a loss is a loss eh?  I've been doing really good for 2 weeks... seems like so long but typing it sounds like nothing.  Today I havent been feeling good.  I went for a walk yesterday under the influence of painkillers and it made me push myself a bit too hard and today I've been suffering badly!  I ate way too much today broke 2000 calories.  I've been told to keep it at 1200-1500 and I think today ended somewhere near 2200.  I keep telling myself that that's still probably HALF of what I was eating before but I still am carrying this guilt like I failed today... but ugh whatever, tomorrow is a new day and I am sure I will feel better about it too.

I am trying to change everything in my life all at once and it feels pretty overhwelming sometimes. I am trying to eat small portions 5-6 times a day and choose healthy foods and before I ate 1-2 HUGE meals per day.  Also before I slept 4 hours and was up 4 hours repeat all around the clock.. for 5 years!  I am making myself go to bed now by midnight and get up and STAY up in the morning at 7.  My body is fighting me hardcore...guess its not happy about change? lol  I feel better mentally and I cant wait for the feeling better physically part to kick in because it sure hasnt. LOL  Filing for divorce this week which is causing me tons of stress not BAD stress for the most part but still stress...

I think I just needed to vent that stuff...so thanks for allowing it LOL

6 months lets you take everything in baby steps. Take advantage of that.

I know it's annoying, but you'll be better for making the changes over 6 months.

(((HUGS)))

Hang in there - you'll be OK.  One day at a time.