Need get back on Track!!!
Hello Everyone,
I haven't posted in quite awhile. I haven't even been lurking for a few weeks. I have hit a major downslide somehow. I have been so upset these past few weeks. My weight loss not only stalled, but has crept up a few pounds (was 198 this am). I got away from my OH family, becasue I was embarrassed, ashamed, and mostly just mad at myself!! I know there are ups and downs to life, be this ha**** me hard. I feel like I am at the bottom, just struggling to survive, and not sure that I want to anymore.
I came back tonight hoping to get some inspiration, and mostly just to start back into what I know I have to do. I have missed reading everyones posts, but didn't want to bring other folks down with me. I really didn't have it in me to give the pep talks like I used to. I have missed everyone here, I truly feel that some of you are genuine friends!!!!
I know I am the only one who can turn this around, and I know I can do it. I may struggle still, I may not lose much more, perhaps this is where my body wants to be. I have come a long way in 17 months, but I know I can do better. I don't want to be the fat girl who got smaller, then fat again. I don't want to give the RNY surgery a bad name!!!! I want to be a success!!!!
As I write this, the tears are flowing, and the brain is on overload. Forgive me if I sound beyond stupid at this point. Life has just been not good lately.
I think I am done rambling for now....
Caroline
I haven't posted in quite awhile. I haven't even been lurking for a few weeks. I have hit a major downslide somehow. I have been so upset these past few weeks. My weight loss not only stalled, but has crept up a few pounds (was 198 this am). I got away from my OH family, becasue I was embarrassed, ashamed, and mostly just mad at myself!! I know there are ups and downs to life, be this ha**** me hard. I feel like I am at the bottom, just struggling to survive, and not sure that I want to anymore.
I came back tonight hoping to get some inspiration, and mostly just to start back into what I know I have to do. I have missed reading everyones posts, but didn't want to bring other folks down with me. I really didn't have it in me to give the pep talks like I used to. I have missed everyone here, I truly feel that some of you are genuine friends!!!!
I know I am the only one who can turn this around, and I know I can do it. I may struggle still, I may not lose much more, perhaps this is where my body wants to be. I have come a long way in 17 months, but I know I can do better. I don't want to be the fat girl who got smaller, then fat again. I don't want to give the RNY surgery a bad name!!!! I want to be a success!!!!
As I write this, the tears are flowing, and the brain is on overload. Forgive me if I sound beyond stupid at this point. Life has just been not good lately.
I think I am done rambling for now....
Caroline
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Caroline-
I think you are very courageous to share your vulnerability with us. Taking that first step is so important. I am confident that if you apply the tools you have at your disposal and checking to be sure you are eating to provide nourishment and energy to your body and not eating to sooth as many of us do especially under stress and exercise you will get back on track.
There was just a post form another OH member on the RI board from someone who had slipped a bit but went back to her Nutritionist and got back to exercising.
My big take away is that we have to be vigilent and focus on making changes that are lifestyle changes and not looking to a "diet" will make each of us sucessful in the long haul.
Let the stress out, that will only make your weightloss that much more difficult. Seek an outlet or solution to the stress along with the other changes you are making and you will be better for this bump in the road. You can do it. Here Cheering for you!!!
Cynthia
I think you are very courageous to share your vulnerability with us. Taking that first step is so important. I am confident that if you apply the tools you have at your disposal and checking to be sure you are eating to provide nourishment and energy to your body and not eating to sooth as many of us do especially under stress and exercise you will get back on track.
There was just a post form another OH member on the RI board from someone who had slipped a bit but went back to her Nutritionist and got back to exercising.
My big take away is that we have to be vigilent and focus on making changes that are lifestyle changes and not looking to a "diet" will make each of us sucessful in the long haul.
Let the stress out, that will only make your weightloss that much more difficult. Seek an outlet or solution to the stress along with the other changes you are making and you will be better for this bump in the road. You can do it. Here Cheering for you!!!
Cynthia
Caroline,
You have been a huge inspiration to me. Even though I do not write alot on here, I read posts and it serves as a positive influence to me. I too get down and disgusted and I usually come on here for good thoughts and see how everone else is doing. I also try to hit a support group with live people on the low times and that really helps motivate me. Another support for me is to read some of the healthy recipes off here (especially Eggface [Shelly] always has good food that soothes that inner craving but is still healthy) or a couple other healthy websites.
I was depressed when the scale crept up about 2-3 pounds about 6 weeks ago. I went on here and read what to do. I was getting cravings especially for carbs. I did the 5 day pouch test and dropped back to where I was in 4 days and have not been back up yet. I got the cravings under control and it reset my thinking. I also did the plateau buster diet several months back which also got the scale numbers moving in the right direction which is all I needed to get back on track.
I also have to keep on my exercise routine. It helps keep me positive and even though the numbers are barely moving, my clothes are still getting looser. There are days I would like to eat anything in sight, luckily I am scared to do that but when I do slip a little, I get more depressed and like you, I fear becoming a statistic that I lost a bunch only to regain. Does your program offer a psych support team? It may be worth a call to sit and talk to someone now before you get too down on yourself!
Take care! My thoughts are wtih you!
Sue
You have been a huge inspiration to me. Even though I do not write alot on here, I read posts and it serves as a positive influence to me. I too get down and disgusted and I usually come on here for good thoughts and see how everone else is doing. I also try to hit a support group with live people on the low times and that really helps motivate me. Another support for me is to read some of the healthy recipes off here (especially Eggface [Shelly] always has good food that soothes that inner craving but is still healthy) or a couple other healthy websites.
I was depressed when the scale crept up about 2-3 pounds about 6 weeks ago. I went on here and read what to do. I was getting cravings especially for carbs. I did the 5 day pouch test and dropped back to where I was in 4 days and have not been back up yet. I got the cravings under control and it reset my thinking. I also did the plateau buster diet several months back which also got the scale numbers moving in the right direction which is all I needed to get back on track.
I also have to keep on my exercise routine. It helps keep me positive and even though the numbers are barely moving, my clothes are still getting looser. There are days I would like to eat anything in sight, luckily I am scared to do that but when I do slip a little, I get more depressed and like you, I fear becoming a statistic that I lost a bunch only to regain. Does your program offer a psych support team? It may be worth a call to sit and talk to someone now before you get too down on yourself!
Take care! My thoughts are wtih you!
Sue
These rough times are just more steps in your journey to living differently. Lately, it seems you are walking on the familiar path of pre-wls, but you know this journey is too important to you to stay on those old paths. Look for that fork in the road and get back on that wls path because that is the one path you can walk on proudly with your head held high. And when you look back at those old paths you can be even more proud of where the new paths have lead you because you are worth the journey!
I am with you sweetie.
I am at a stand still on my weight ,i started journaling again and i realized i wasnt getting in all my water and protein and lets not even talk exercise.
So i got a job and started watching everything i do,my tool works im just not using it to my advantage.
You have been an inspiration to alot of people and we need to let others know that sometimes this happens and it is okay..
Hang in there it does get better and you have done wonderful..
I am at a stand still on my weight ,i started journaling again and i realized i wasnt getting in all my water and protein and lets not even talk exercise.
So i got a job and started watching everything i do,my tool works im just not using it to my advantage.
You have been an inspiration to alot of people and we need to let others know that sometimes this happens and it is okay..
Hang in there it does get better and you have done wonderful..
Thanks so much for the advice!!! I will start journaling again this week. I have been trying to walk daily, but the workouts have been few and far apart. I think I just have to get into the habit of getting up before work to get my but to the gym!!! I know I can get back on track!!!
Thanks again
Thanks again
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