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Lucky me, 3 more weeks to lose preop...

Donna C.
on 9/16/09 9:23 am
Hey everyone, Kind of bummed out here.  I called yesterday because no one had gotten back to me about scheduling any preop testing and my surgery was scheduled for 9/29.  Well, the girl there was like, "I don't see you on the schedule.  Oh, your surgery isnt until 10/20."  So anyway, I waited all day today for my doc's secretary to call to confirm what is going on, since I already put in to my work for the 2 weeks off starting at the end of September!  She says she just found out today that they had changed me to 10/20.  Yeah right, they changed the day and she just doesnt want to admit she forget to inform me.  The other woman in the office who isnt even my doc's secretary knew the day before, but when she realized I didnt know she was like I tell so and so and have her call you tomorrow.  So I am upset, but I know, I know, she wants me to lose as much as possible before the surgery and that gives me an extra 3 weeks but I was ready to have it in 2 weeks.  I did get a candy bar last night when I got really upset, but as far as binges go that was pretty damn in control for me.  Haven't had anything like that in quite a while though and it mad me a little green around the gills, major heartburn.  UGH!  So mostly I am just trying to stay calm.  Came too far to go off the deep end now but I am not very happy about it.  ARGHHHHH! 

Friends are the family we choose for ourselves.

HW 491, BMI 70.4 *** SW 444, BMI 63.7 *** CW 364, BMI 52.5

 

       
thepose2003
on 9/16/09 10:00 am - NJ
Hi Donna,


I know you u feel bummed out but remember things happen for a reason. I know you were set on having your surgery in two and that sux, but you still are blessed. You may not have it when you want it but you will have it done and that's what counts. You've come so far I've been checking this post out and you've done awesome. Just keep losing don't stress or fret. The more weight you lose the less you will have too, and if you found the strength to lose before surgery you can count that you will be sucessfull when you get the surgery done. Just tie up all lose ends and relax these weeks are going to go by like crazy. Keep up the good work Donna. Just recite this to yourself when you feel bummed out you are pushed back week or two "THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON AND SOMETIMES WE DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY BUT IT'S USUALLY IS IN OUR FAVOR THAT IT DOES".
Donna C.
on 9/16/09 11:53 am
Thanks the pose, Needed to hear some encouragement.  Like that things happen for a reason kind of attitude.  Like the angel duster.  Kinda makes me think about my mom and sis maybe angel dusted the surgery days to get me a better day.  Gotta let go and trust things will be better this way.  I am feeling a little oogie lately.  My niece called last week and her and her sister are ready to clean out their mom's stuff and they want me to help them so we are doing that on Saturday.  There Dad is okay with it but is taken off for the day.  He dont want to be there.   But I am thinking it will be probably good for all of us, and I hate in spooky movies where they have that one room no one goes in and it is someone's stuff the way they left it 30 years ago!  Creepy.  Thank God I got a date with my psychologist on Friday.  He gets paid to listen to me whine but he doesn't really let me get away with it!  PEACE!

Friends are the family we choose for ourselves.

HW 491, BMI 70.4 *** SW 444, BMI 63.7 *** CW 364, BMI 52.5

 

       
Teresa S.
on 9/16/09 12:47 pm - Simpson, IL
Sounds like you are going to be busy.. That is good, You will see that the time will go by really fast.  Keep up your chin and watch it fly by....


I was so bummed out when I found out I had to wait another three months. So I know exactly how you feel.  I felt like throwing a fit and screaming and acting like a two year old that just got their candy taken away.. I am so glad that only lasted a few minutes.. How much I felt like a baby but yet I still was angry.  I guess when we get our minds made up that something is going to happen in a set period of time and it dont it is like the whole world stopped turning.. I had to deal with the anger and the hurt feelings and try not to eat the back out of the refridgerator.

I made it ok and I am now on the waiting game merry go round. It seems like this all just happend to me and I am still a little miffed about it but a month has already gone by.. So I am sure the next two will too.

I agree with the pose.  Things happen for a reason. When my surgeon I was going to use lost his license I was so upset at having to use a new surgeon. But now that I find out more about the new surgoen I thank God that I wound up with him as my surgeon. The hospital is better experienced and the surgeon is too.  I was so upset as I just told you when I found out the new insurance was going to make me go thru 3 months more of supervised diet and loose more weight. But in doing all this I find out that the new insurance covers the abdomoplasty and the old didnt for any any reason.. So I guess I am being guided in the right direction.  I get upset and angry and mad at each road block that has been put in front of me but I always find out later that is was a great detour.

So being upset is not unusual for any of us. Eating a candy bar is not unusual for any of us. I would have too if I had any in the house.. I live too far from town to run out for one.. Thank God.  I was so tempted to eat anything I had here.. But I knew I had worked too hard for this.  Just like you realized it was not the answer to solve the problem anymore. Well I guess your body did too since it didnt set right with you..

You are doing a great job in getting ready for the surgery.. Keep up the good work and hang in there. The time difference in surgery won't be that awful.  Sometime in the future you may learn why it was good for the date to be changed. I am sure that God is watching out for you and guiding all the road blocks on your journey as well...

May you have a great journey and have a wonderful guide to lead you in the right direction.
God Bless



Teresa S. 

   

    Beginning Weight 303    Surgery weight 236     Amount lost by surgery date  67lbs    
    Starting BMI  63.3             Surgery BMI 49.3          Goal Weight 125 Goal BMI 26.1

      

In Order To Change...a Caterpillar must have the faith of a Butterfly    
Patty T.
on 9/17/09 5:56 am - Boalsburg, PA
I know you must be disappointed. For us pre-ops, the journey to surgery often feels like a mountain we need to climb. And then to find out that no, wrong mountain. You want the next one over.

And I totally get the impulse to eat to medicate the hurt and disappointment. I think one of my biggest struggles is finding other coping mechanisms. I'm trying to limit my food AND I don't have cigarettes anymore. I've had some meltdowns in the last 2 weeks, but have tried not to turn to food. My release seems to be tears, which is disconcerting to people around me. I need to find a better one.

Good job on limiting what you ate. It's a good step to conquering our habit of turning to food for comfort.

Hang in there. You Can Do Hard Things.


RubyEllen
on 9/17/09 2:03 pm
Donna, I'm SO sorry. Shoot, even I'm disappointed with your date change, I had 9/29 in my head. A one candy bar meltdown is minor.

Are you doing liquds only? I just discovered Unjury unflavored today. I took the canister to work and mixed a scoop with my Crystal Light raspberry lemonaide and I added some ice, but didn't blend. It was SO good. It wasn't too thick; it was very refreshing.

I have also been working on making my own salad dressing. I'm trying to make up one serving at a time and vary them so all the salads don't taste the same. It's kind of interesting. I made one dud after another, but I'm catching on. I can't live on tasteless food so I'm thinking this whole vinaigrette thing is going to help me get the protein and the veggies in.

I hope the clearing out of stuff with your relatives goes well. Staying busy is good. I know that Oct 20 is probably a better date, but DARN, shoot, dirty words. They don't need to be messing with something so important to you. Being a grown up is hard.....
 Food is for sissies. REAL women exist on skim milk, protein powder, broth and air.....          
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