near 6month post-op

 Ok so im 3 days away from my 6month surgeriversary.. and i find my self slipping off track.. but not in the way one might think... im on total opposite side of spectrum... leave it to me to be "different" So heres my recent dilema... im skipping meals not wanting to eat at all even more so then just after surgery...  im gaining back weight that i have worked so hard to lose...  even tho its only a few lbs i want to get ahold of it now..... im not getting in my 60g protien a day... drinking about 50oz a water a day if that.. i truely just dont want anything... i'd live on sugerfree popsicles if my husband would let me.. and then only 2-3 of those a day...  its been warm here in PA this week.. so thats making me have even less of an appitite... sighs... i know what im doing wrong... but just need to hold myself accountable... so im posting it.. and as of today... im starting my protien shakes (bodyfortress 30g per shake or carnation instant breakfast SF 15g made with powdered milk) again.. ones i drank pre-op... atleast it will replace the meals im skipping and add extra liquids...  i couldnt do the shakes after surgery they made me really sick.. so i got into the habit of not drinking them.. substituted isopure water(40g per bottle****il i got where i could eat...  then once i started eating i was doing great... nearly always making my protein goals.. but was forcing myself to eat..  i have this screwed up mentality when it comes to food...  i've been dieting for so many yrs... its hard to convince myself that eating causes weightloss....  that was my problem before surgery i wasnt eating enough and my body was in starvation mode... and stored everything i put into it..  yes there were times i binged...  but were few n far between... anyhow what im trying to say is i feel myself slipping back into my pre-op habit of not eating..  so.... 2 shakes a day.... and high protein lunch like i was doing pre-op... thats my plan of attack.. for now... i just need to make myself stick to it.. 
also i feel like im becoming depressed again... losing my hair, weightloss slowing, creeping back up... excess skin... nothing fitting right... depression can cause loss of appitite as well.. right?
 thanks for listening/reading... just needed to vent... 

***EDITED**** 
ok Heres the measurements i promised...someone cant remember who... Teresa? i think..... my memory sucks lately.. 
i suck at math.. so if some figures are wrong... oppsie.. 
inches lost from total body since july08'
76 to 47....29-waist
22 to 14...8-neck
22 to 16...6-biceps
15 to 10...5-forearms
84 to 48....36-hips
48 to 25.5....22.5 thighs
26 to 16...10-calfs
65 to 45..20-chest
29+8+6+5+36+22.5+10+20= 136.5 inches lost.. 

Don't be discouraged!! Remember, EAT BREATHE MOVE. Those 3 things will help you get healthier, and the weight loss will get back on track.

I lost tons of hair. It came out in clumps. But it grew back. And, most people didn't even notice that I had lost it in the first place. Excess skin is a badge of honor, honey! When I walk around naked my body is like a Jell-O explosion, but I would WAY rather have the loose skin than the weight to fill it out.

When weight loss slows, it's time to get up and MOVE. Okay--I was just online and reading the blogs of fat women who are also athletes. There's one gal who is 300 pounds and she has finished several triathlons. That's 2.4 miles of swimming, 112 miles of biking, and 26.2 miles of running, one right after the other! It's an endurance test, and this fat lady DID IT! So, how can we say we just can't do it?? We all have challenges, but one way to kickstart the metabolism is to make our muscles work. I started with walking, then walk/running. Now I am running 5 miles at one go, my heart's like a hammer, my lungs are clear, I feel very good. Another thing I have noticed--you NEVER hear the folks on the "Exercise and Fitness" forum complaining about weight regain. NEVER.

So, have faith in yourself, reach out to your loved ones and friends for support, keep track of intake, and move, move, move!! All the bes****erwench

 thanks for the advice and words of encouragement...  i been trying i do work out on my excercise bike a few times a week 30mins at atime and walk when im up to it.. i have a really bad knee from those yrs carring around so much excess weight.. it wore down the cartlidge or whatever its called... but i luv my recumbent bike.. and i also have  resistence tubes i use as well... maybe i will add some extra time to my workouts.. even if just a few mins to start... 

That's the spirit! Go, Peggy! Go, Peggy! It's your birthday--Go, Peggy!! 

Peggy, this is merely a stall in the long run! The "surgeon's gift" is 18 months of weight loss, so the scale will start moving again...as you move a bit more! Starting this weekend, I'm re-dedicating myself to exercise to maximize results as I near my five-month post-op mark end of this month. While I dearly despise the gym and all the sweat & exertion, I have promised to REALLY give it a fair shake and actually stick to a 5x/week-minimum routine for three months (for the first time in my life) and evaluate its effect on my pound & inch loss as well as exercise attitude. Wanna do this with me? I'm one of your fans and will not accept your feelings of defeat for very long, ok?! You're doing GREAT and don't forget it...just follow the plan and make yourself move more...PM if you want!

Your friend, Linda in South FLA

  i can do 5x a week im already doing 4... an extra day wont kill me.. and im gona add an extra 15mins per day as well i usually ride my Xbike 30mins or do the vid work out that came with my resistance bands 30 mins everyother day..  but an extra day and extra 15 mins might be just what i need... (excercising in general is new to me)  but im doing my best... im still having alot of dizzy near fainting spells.. after standing for more then 5mins somedays.. but labs say everything is fine... so im just trying to work through it...

Peggy,

It sounds like you already know what to do. You have the right ideas now just put them into action.  Eat what you are suppose to eat.. You have to get out of the frame of mind less in means weight loss. You have to eat the right amounts of the right foods. And the exercise id important too. Even if you added just 10 minutes to each day you already exercise it would make a difference. But first off you have to get out of the starvation mode.

You are my inspiration. I know you can get through this. You have had many hills to climb to get where you are and you have climbed them all. You are now climbing a mountain. So get climbing. It may be a little harder then the hills But I know you can do it.  Climb baby climb..
If you get stuck and think you can't climb anymore then pm me and I will give you a push.

We are all her to help you climb that mountain Peggy. Now that you posted this yes I am going to hold you accountable. You post and let us know how things are going. If I dont hear from you I will be pm to ask you..

and yes Peggy it was me that wanted to know your measurment losses. WOW.. what a great accomplishment.. I can't believe it. You have really done a great job.. You can do it now too.  So like the other poster said. GO Peggy GO..

We will be right here cheering you on  .. and keeping you accountable too.   lol

Your friend..

 im doing better this week... been pushing myself and eating more.. less dizzy spells.. as well..  thanks for u kind words of encouragement.. it means more then u know..  ur  so right about me needing to get out of that mind set..  its so hard tho.. so many years of being programed.. to believe it that way... i can totally see how some post ops become anorexic...  like its said... op was on our insides not our heads... unfortunatly... hugs...

You can handle the head games. You know now they are not true. You can keep reminding yourself of that.  I get that way too. I was going back on that diet I was on before becasue I have to loose another 13 lbs down to 245 for the insurance and I did go back on but I was trying to eat less then the diet calls for. I got stuck and I have been stuck now for a couple of weeks well going on three weeks now. I realized I was not eating enough. I put my body in the starvation mode. I know better than that. We all know better than that now. SO I have got the same problem trying to convert baack to the old way of thinking to loose weight. I ahve to start back eating the diet just like before and I probably will break this plateau Im on.

You have the tool now.. You just have to remember how to use it. It is like you are trying to dig a hole and you have a  $23000.00 back hoe but instead you are trying to do it the old fashion way with a shovel.  Girl you use that tool. You paid a lot to get it. You worked hard to get it. So now that you have it use it, and don't forget the instructions they are very important.. lol  Forget all the old fashion ways of doing things. They do not work. You know they don't..  Just keep reminding your self to eat like you are suppose to.

I realize that it gets harder as you get farther along to loose as fast.. But you will still loose. You have done a great job so far. My goodness look how far you have come. Not only the weight but the measurements.  Even if you dont feel like eating you have to have the protein.. start using the shakes again. or sometype of replacement .. You will have problems otherwise not getting in the protein..   Heck even though you don't feel like eating you only have to eat a small amount and supplimnet with shakes. 

I am glad you are doing better this week and pushing your self more.. I hate to have to come push you..lol it would be a long trip.. But I sure will keep you accountable if that is what it takes..
So now you have gave me your new numbers.. I am so proud for you.. You measure again in a few weeks you may be loosing inches and not pounds. Keep up the good work and let me know how you are doing. If I dont hear from you I will check in on you  haha