Hello :) I'm joining this board as my new "home"
Lots of great boards here but I think due to my size and situation this will probably be where I hang out most so I'd better say hello!
I'm Jessie 34 years old mommy to 2. I have an autistic son who is 9 and a 7 year old daughter.
I've had a pretty rough past 4-5 years lost vehicles, our house, separated from my husband battled his depression and suicide attempts before that. Ive had a lot of counselling, fought schools over my sons educational needs... pretty much I thikn what happened here was that I lost track of myself... and that must be how I ended up here at 331 pounds with insanely high triglycerides and diabetes and well my list of things that makes me a tocking time bomb for stroke as my doctor says. I refuse to sit and dwell on any of those pas thigns that have happened as my kids and I are ok and we will be.... BUT I am very scared about my health, or lack there of and how its affecting our lives. I've always been very active and very social and I find that I hide a lot now....
I've read a lot of inspirational stories and looked at tons of pictures and I have to say... I never thought I would EVER get a chance at feelign what a 'normal' weight life would be like but being here I am seeing that its not impossible... and maybe it could still happen... thats pretty exciting! I am not so young anymore but I know I have a new life to begin and its going to be the best. I want t be healthy and energetic and I want my kids to remember me that way when they think back.... :( it kills me to think about what they would look bck on now if things dont change... oh but they will change.
My BMI is over 55 according to this little thing here.... so here I am hoping to figure out which surgery is best for me and how to begin ASAP so I can begin to LIVE!!! I was thinking about the vertical pouch but I was encouraged to read about the duodenal switch.... I think that I see why the switch could be great but it sounds soooo much more risky and scarey.... I need my hand held maybe so I can just go for it.
Anyway, I know this is a good place for me so here I will sit :)
Jess
Edited to add.... I didnt mean to make it sound like I think I am OLD... I'm sorry if it sounds that way... I guess I just mean... I'm not in my 20's anymore lol I think of things like gettign remarried and having another baby and how it might be too late for the baby thing and that kinda makes me feel OLD but not really in an overall sense.
I'm Jessie 34 years old mommy to 2. I have an autistic son who is 9 and a 7 year old daughter.
I've had a pretty rough past 4-5 years lost vehicles, our house, separated from my husband battled his depression and suicide attempts before that. Ive had a lot of counselling, fought schools over my sons educational needs... pretty much I thikn what happened here was that I lost track of myself... and that must be how I ended up here at 331 pounds with insanely high triglycerides and diabetes and well my list of things that makes me a tocking time bomb for stroke as my doctor says. I refuse to sit and dwell on any of those pas thigns that have happened as my kids and I are ok and we will be.... BUT I am very scared about my health, or lack there of and how its affecting our lives. I've always been very active and very social and I find that I hide a lot now....
I've read a lot of inspirational stories and looked at tons of pictures and I have to say... I never thought I would EVER get a chance at feelign what a 'normal' weight life would be like but being here I am seeing that its not impossible... and maybe it could still happen... thats pretty exciting! I am not so young anymore but I know I have a new life to begin and its going to be the best. I want t be healthy and energetic and I want my kids to remember me that way when they think back.... :( it kills me to think about what they would look bck on now if things dont change... oh but they will change.
My BMI is over 55 according to this little thing here.... so here I am hoping to figure out which surgery is best for me and how to begin ASAP so I can begin to LIVE!!! I was thinking about the vertical pouch but I was encouraged to read about the duodenal switch.... I think that I see why the switch could be great but it sounds soooo much more risky and scarey.... I need my hand held maybe so I can just go for it.
Anyway, I know this is a good place for me so here I will sit :)
Jess
Edited to add.... I didnt mean to make it sound like I think I am OLD... I'm sorry if it sounds that way... I guess I just mean... I'm not in my 20's anymore lol I think of things like gettign remarried and having another baby and how it might be too late for the baby thing and that kinda makes me feel OLD but not really in an overall sense.
Welcome. It sounds like you have had a rough time. I packed the last 80 lbs on when I was having a rough time. It sounds like you're ready to do something good for YOU. I had RNY in June and it has changed my life. Sometimes I get frustrated with food limitations or not being able to eat like I used to, but the I try to focus on my journey. I'll get there, but I try to enjoy the small victories. Welcome again, I have found this website wonderful... It's made me laugh, taught me things and has truly helped keep me sane. 
WELCOME, Jess. This is a safe home forum. I'm newish too and pre op. I'm going for a lapband, which I know is not the most efficient way to lose the many pounds, but it's what I'm comfortable doing.
Now about you, YOUNG lady......you have PLENTY of time to turn your health around. I'm 57 and I'm still hopeful. You can get some pounds off and enjoy those kids of yours. I can imagine that having an autistic son must take lots of patience and energy plus you have to be an advocate for him.
I'm sorry about the separation from the husband. Sounds like he was not helping the family much as he had/has his own issues. Life is definitely NOT the fairy tale I was hoping for, but it has good moments.
Getting some surgery to help you and learning a new way of eating and cooking will be good for you AND tne kids. I hope you get good guidance and find a team to help you with your medical conditions. I have to lose 10% so insurance will pay for this surgery and I'm amazed at how DELICIOUS a fuji apple can taste if I'm hungry enough.
Most of us eat CRUMMY diets. We'll feel better staying away from the sugar, white flour, butter stuff.
Have a good rest of the weekend.
Now about you, YOUNG lady......you have PLENTY of time to turn your health around. I'm 57 and I'm still hopeful. You can get some pounds off and enjoy those kids of yours. I can imagine that having an autistic son must take lots of patience and energy plus you have to be an advocate for him.
I'm sorry about the separation from the husband. Sounds like he was not helping the family much as he had/has his own issues. Life is definitely NOT the fairy tale I was hoping for, but it has good moments.
Getting some surgery to help you and learning a new way of eating and cooking will be good for you AND tne kids. I hope you get good guidance and find a team to help you with your medical conditions. I have to lose 10% so insurance will pay for this surgery and I'm amazed at how DELICIOUS a fuji apple can taste if I'm hungry enough.
Most of us eat CRUMMY diets. We'll feel better staying away from the sugar, white flour, butter stuff.
Have a good rest of the weekend.
Food is for sissies. REAL women exist on skim milk, protein powder, broth and air..... 
Welcome Jess,
This is a really great place to hang out, but I have to agree with RubyEllen, 34 is young! LOL! Anyways, I am 45 and I dont consider myself old, I am just a big kid at heart, it's all relative.
If you arn't sure about what surgery to have, do check out the surgery boards. They can be very informative. I picked RNY which I will be having 9/29. Cant wait to plant my butt on the big loser's bench!
This is a really great place to hang out, but I have to agree with RubyEllen, 34 is young! LOL! Anyways, I am 45 and I dont consider myself old, I am just a big kid at heart, it's all relative.
If you arn't sure about what surgery to have, do check out the surgery boards. They can be very informative. I picked RNY which I will be having 9/29. Cant wait to plant my butt on the big loser's bench!
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