My Epiphany

I can relate as well. I never really thought about how large I was, I was always active, went dancing, enjoyed gardening, hiking and enjoying life. So my weight never registered with me. Once in a while I would see a picture of myself and cringe. I could not be that big. The camera just caught me at a bad angle.  However, like Patty, as I got older, things started to get more difficult and I very slowly stopped doing all the things I enjoyed. I got very angry at myself for not doing more, never blaming it on my weight. I went througha deep depression (where of course I gained more weight). And then I decided that I am responsible for my own fate, and peraps losing a little weight might help.  WOW! What  difference 4 months makes. I feel great and am back to doing things I used to do, only they are much easier now. Hmmm?

In any case, I have watched your progress from the beginning and you truly are amazing!  You are a true WLS hero!

Keep up the great work.

Denise

You hit it right on the head for me as well!!!

Yes it is weird how one view's themself.  After losing almost 130 lbs I STILL feel fat sometimes. I see the sizes going down but I stand in front of the mirror and am disappointed by the hanging skin and imperfections. I have to constantly battle with my inner self to focus on the fact that I got rid of several co-morbitities and that alone should make me content, but that little voice who sabbatoged my weight loss efforts for 40 years is NOT in control anymore...I AM!  Comprehending our success is a mini battle all on its own. We just need to keep motivated, as you say.  HUGS  Jeanine

I totally get that!  I am struggling with that myself.  I had no idea how large I'd gotten. I stopped registering how large I was at about 340.  I am almost there again and when I look at myself, I just shrug and think, I'm still huge so when is it going to change?  I went to a family reunion today and when I walked into the room, everything went quiet and people just turned to stare, stunned at the 99 pounds that I had lost.  I saw absolutely no difference.  I just know that a very nice blouse I wore once almost a decade ago that never really fit well fit just fine today.  Body image is so weird.

My partner was never really large but she did get to about 215.  She lost 45 pounds and is wearing a size 6 or 8 now.  She still thinks she is fat.  It ****** me off ;)