One year!
I know I have been distant, I know I have not been around, My life has gotten crazy, It will all get better after Nov 1st when My sister will move here and her kids will return to her. I have had 2 extra kids since june 1st and its been a challenge to say the least! I hope to return to logging more often and keeping in touch with most of you and for the ones who dont know me......Nice to meet you!
I wanted to post a year update!
One year today I kissed my husband goodbye as I got rolled into that cold ass operating room to start my new healthy life! A life where I can cross my legs, pull up the seat in the car and put down the steering wheel so I can see and touch the peddles. A life where I can buy new cloths at every store I want to shop at. A life where when I meet new people they don’t look at me like “that poor girl” ( which is how I always thought everyone looked at me) a life where when I say what’s on my mind in a public setting I am taken seriously because my weight is not so out of control that how could possibly be in control of anything? A life where I am not afraid to go to the Dr.s I am not afraid to go see old friends! Where I am not afraid to make plans to go on vacation because I may not fit in the seat on the plane , even driving on long vacations was to hard because my legs would swell and ache. I can go on outings with my cub scout den and actually participate and have fun doing it! I’m not afraid of the camera and if someone is taking a group shot I no longer ruin everyone’s fun by skipping out of photo. I willingly go to places where there are only seats with arm rests. Last year I went to my nephews state champion wrestling tournament at the Pepsi in Albany and I didn’t fit in the chairs I had to stand. When my mother in law passed away I almost didn’t go to her funeral because I could only afford a coach ticket. ( my brother got me a first class one) I can clean myself without taking a shower every time I used the rest room…..that was TERRIBLE!!
When I think of all the things I missed and how unhealthy I was and how I put my children at risk of losing their mom and my husband at risk of being a single dad all because of my love of food I think how sad it is that it took this drastic of a thing to wake my ass up…I hope I never fall asleep again!!! My biggest fear is that I gain it back!!! I am down to 205 today….I have lost exactly 185 lbs and I have made some great friends!
Thanks to everyone who supports me…..
The girls! I love you all!
Highest= 390
Surgery=346
Today =205
40 lbs to goal!
down 185 lbs
Youve come along way baby..
You have done wonderful.But you made me cry you are describing my life before feb..
You know i was in the hosp and you sent me 2 yellow roses that meant so much to me..
you made me cry that day to..
Love you Estelle and you are the greatest keep up the good work...
