Is it ever enough

Jenny girl You didn't offend me. I really appreciate you responding. I have been obese to SMO my entire life. You really gave some things to think about. How do you fight an addiction to food when you need food to nourish your body.....It will make you go co co for the cocoa puffs. I am trying to deal with the mental part the best way I can. Somedays I handle it better than others. But everyday I work at it.....one day at a time. Just like any other addict in recovery.

Well all I know is I am currently in meltdown stage myself so I might be talking out of my ass. That's what I appreciate about forums such as these - take what you want and leave the rest. I know I am crazy about 85% of the time so I feel bad when I rub someone the wrong way. I'm just sharing how I see it - doesn't make it true or false - just makes it my special brand of crazy. lol Hope you have a wonderful blessed night.  Jenny

Jenny You did not rub me the wrong way. I don't think their is anybody on BMI over 50 that sets out to hurt your feelings. back at you who else will I talk to when I go totally off the deep end 

Tricie, interesting that you posted this topic.  I was thinking about this today. I still have a "2" in front of my weight.  It is making me crazy.  My personal goal has always been "below 200" and I feel like I'll never get there.  On the other hand, my family and friends keep telling me I'm melting away.  I recently lost two inches off my waist from exercise, but no numbers changed on the scale. Does it matter if I get "below 200"?  My life is 100% better now than it was when I weighed 500+ lb.  In my mind, I worry that if I don't get down under 200 lbs, I will end up back where I was.  I always feel like I'm a week away from being 500+ lbs again.  It's more of a mind game for me than a physical thing. Right now, I'm debating whether to let go of my number goal and focus harder on strength training and fitness.  I'm pretty fit now, but I could do better. Kix edited to add:  Right now, I don't see the weight I've lost.  I see lots of hanging skin and fat., and where I still have lots of fat on my thighs, it's like my eyes focus only on them.  I ignore the positive changes.  Bad Kix. 

Interesting that you feel like you're only a week away from being back to 500lbs... I just had my 2 year anniversary last week, and maybe it's that, but I've been dealing with exactly the same thing. It's almost like "well, this is as low as it gets, you've had your fun, now is when it comes back!". I feel like I've lost the 230lbs over the past two years, and somehow I'm going to pack it right back on during the next two. Crazy, but it scares me to death. Good to know there are other people out there with this irrational idea, too.   PS: I have loads of hanging skin too, which I've taken to picking up and then dropping with some sort of sound effect. While this entertains my boyfriend, and helps me deal with it a little more, it's still gross.