6 Months

Hello everyone! I put the new pics on my profile because I can't ever figure out how to put them on here lol  I don't think its much different than 6 weeks ago but I figured since It was 6 months I should update, Thanks everyone for being here! Yesterday was my 6 Month since my surgery!  What have I learned in the 6 months since My surgery?  well I learned that even though I had WLS Outback steakout still smells delicious from the parking lot ( I learned that today) Everything I knew about diet and exercise before my WLS is still the same only this time i'm a little better at it and nutritionaly I learned alot from BMI over 50 Board.  I have to admit that I am a little disapointed that its work  . I sooo wanted this to be easy but honestly its ALOT easier than if I hadn't had the surgery But not as easy as some think it is and everyday its easier to eat more and different foods and i'm scared that eventualy I will be able to eat an entire bag of doritos on the way home.    How do I feel?   well today I got the information to join a hiking/climbing group that hikes in the Adirondacks. A friend of mine is a member .The hikes are anywhere from 50 mins to 8 hours long. Most are between 3 and 6 hours and I plan on making it our " family " Sunday thing to do . (this week I found out I will have my 2 nieces for the summer)  So I feel pretty good I guess Whats different today then it was 6 months ago? MY husband Does not have to put on my shoes and socks and tie my shoes ( that is very hard for me to admit) I don't feel like people pretend i'm not huge! when people would talk to me before I always wondered what they were thinking...I always thought they were going to burst out and say "how could get that big?"  I can hold a Soda can between my legs in the car lol  I was always amazed my sister could do that and now so can I! I can stand for more than 5 mins without pain I can Run I want to do things I prefer to walk instead of drive My feet do not swell Business people take me more seriously  I can play with my kids I can fit in my car  I can fit on a reg airplane seat My Husband and I can be more intimate (also hard to admit)  I have met some great people on this site What scares me the most is that I will stop losing! That  I will gain it all back! and mosly that Mom will be right and I will be sick because of my surgery! I'm not scared of being sick i'm scared my Mom will be right lol This morning I weighed in at 255.6 :)

LOL at the mom thing - congratulations on your 6 month anniversary, and boy are you right that its not as easy as it sounds like it would be!  Yay for how well you are doing!  You rock Estelle :)

Great post, Estelle, and a nice recap of your thoughts at 6 months out.   Your post reminds me about how I felt as I lost weight, and the world opened up to me.  I had become SMO slowly, and as it happened, I did not realize how narrow my world had become, how many things I didn't do because I was too fat, too uncomfortable, too tired.  As the weight came off and the world opened back up to me, I was amazed at the opportunities that were just waiting for me, for all of us who travel the same road.  Congrats on your progress, and enjoy your new-found freedom.  It only gets better -  Kellie

You look fabulous...And what awesome accomplishment in the past 6 months.. Just think how dramatically different your life has changed in the past 6 months and will continue to change. :) You go girl...

Estelle, Very well said, the things we realize as time goes on.   The hiking sounds like fun with your family and neices this summer.    The changes are endless...you go girl! Did you get the message I left the other night? Michelle...

hurray estelle! you're doing wonderfully! i had to laugh at your "i can hold a soda can between my legs in the car" -- i remember being astonished by that one too! and you're right, it's not easy. but it's worth the effort, don't you think? i know i do! all the best to you! deb

BIG HUGS and congrats on your success so far.  Your Mom will NOT be right.  If thats what you need your motivation to be...then go with it!  WHy is it that no matter how old we get, our parents can still hurt us with their cruel remarks and thoughts??  Don't let her have that much power over you! That was very courageous of you to mention things that you hated to admit about the past.  Its all a way of healing...kudos to you.  There are things we have all dealt with as an obese person that we are ashamed of but that is in the past for us.  I too have the same fears that I will wake up one day and all the weight will be back....probably because we dietied so many times and gained it all back. That was when food had power over us....now we have the power over the food....I pray this is so and continues.  Bottom line is...its all up to us!!  No one else can do it for us....not even a surgeon. You will do fine...keep up the good work!  I am so proud of you girlfriend!! HUGS  Jeanine

Thanks Everyone!!!    I had some serious computer issues last couple days,   Thanks for replying and thanks for being here!  Estelle

Estelle you are doing so great and you are looking so good. What wonderful accomplishments to date.