Feeling Like a Failure

Kix, I don't know you (I don't post in this forum that often) but I am looking at your ticker, and all I have to say is if you're a failure, then I want to be a failure just like you!!!!!!! (((Hug))) Chin up, you've accomplished so much!!

Failure?  Kix, you are the most inspirational person on the boards!  I have admired you since I first started reading these pages.  You and Egg Face keep me going some days!  I hope this dark cloud moves on quickly.  Donna Kay  

Hi Kix, I had a head on desk can't stop crying day myself yesterday. I even looked at the calender and wondered why because it wasn't my time of month, Jen told me about the extra estrogen thing I didn't know about that, If you never get to your goal and if you never get a job I hope you know how much you have helped people on this site. I can't pretend to know you or why you havnet got to your goal yet or why you don't have the JOB you deserve but I can say that you have been such a help to me and everyday I see your posts I read every one of them.  I'm pretty sure you will get everything you are working so hard for because you have already come so far.  Thanks for being here everyday  Estelle

Sorry to hear you had a day like this....WHY DIDN'T YOU CALL ME?????????????   Please feel free to do so any time!!  HUGS  Jeanine

If you are a failure, what does that make the rest of us?  I am not a failure, and neither are you.  I know you are frustrated.  Have you looked for hidden calories in your eating.  Too many nuts or cheese?  Do you track your food on fitday.com.  Maybe your excess weight is skin and it is time to consult about plastics. I am reading two books right now about how changing your thinking can change your life.  I wish you well.  Hugs, Loris

Kix -  You are such an inspiration to me.  I need to lose 270 lbs just to make it to my dr's goal, and about another 20-30 lbs after that to make it to MY goal.  I pray that I can travel this journey following your footsteps with half has much grace and dignity as you have.  Thank you for showing me it IS possible, it IS do-able, it CAN happen. On the job front, I can just tell you what I do.  When I set out to look for a new job, I imagine a huge 'wheel of fortune' wheel being spun.  A number comes up.  I don't know the number, but I know there is a number.  That is the number of interviews and no's I have to go through to get to my new job.  I never question that there is a job out there for me - it's just a matter of time, interviews, and no's for us to find each other.  It may sound silly, but it works wonders for me as I know it's a numbers game and I've got to burn through my numbers to get to what I want. Hope this helps! Jana

Kix Oh honey i wish i was near you to give you a big hugg. You are far from a failure. You have been  me an inspiration to me, i get on here to remind myself you girls have done this and maybe i can to. You have wisdom to share, advice to give us and humor to make us laugh. I know i am my own worse critic . But i have not accomplished what you have. You will get over this do you think its the winter time blues? What line of work are you in? I cant wait to go back to work. But you pat yourself on the back and say damn girl look what you have done you are looking fine,, Here is you hhhhhhhhhhhhhuuuuuuuuuuuuuugggggggggggggg

Kix...I will probably sound like a broken record here...but in my book you simply ARE NOT a failure!!  You have accomplished an incredible feat in losing 312 lbs!!  I'm so sorry that hormones are keeping you from feeling that pride. I have to agree with the many others who have mentioned what an inspiration you have been....you have helped so many of us & others you have no idea about!! You obviously are a fighter....so muster up your hidden strength and maintain confidence that you will get that job and those tires will stop spinning and you'll coast onto continued weight loss and brighter days!  HUGS  Jeanine

I don't want to belabor this, especially if your down mood was due to PMS, but something occurred to me last night. I went to read your story and was reminded (yet again) that if you have blogged about your journey, you aren't sharing it here. So I did some detective woirk and looked back over your post history to see where all you have been. Lots of interesting reading.  Go back over some of it yourself. Celebrate how very far you have come.

Given that you have lost so much and not yet had plastics, might that incredibly stubborn last 20 lbs or so be skin? If so, how can you POSSIBLY be a failure? You've done great, probably better than your doc ever expected. Now the next step is that job with good insurance so you CAN have the plastics.

What do ya think?

Hugs, Patty

    Yes, you're right. You'll be ok - just in a "funk".  I'm at the same point as you are.  I think I'm obsessing too much on the scale and weight and am going to try to focus on other things.  Kinda like the saying " a watched pot never boils"???  Ya think??