God grant me . . .

the serenity to accept the things I cannot change (daily weight fluctuations!  how long it takes to lose at 2 years out!), courage to change the things I can (what I eat, how much I exercise, how much fluid I get in), and the wisdom to know the difference.   Having a frustrating day because the scale has gone up 6 pounds in 4 days, and my day-to-day routine has not changed!  I know our weight fluctuates on a daily basis for many reasons, and I'm usually pretty good at just accepting that.  But for some reason it's bothering me today.  Thought I might calm myself down by posting and putting this out into the internet universe...   Kellie

HEY KELLIE,        YOU KNOW ITS FUNNY HOW WE ARE SO CHAINED TO THE SCALE. I FOR ONE AM A PRISONER OF THAT. AND YES, I WILL ADMIT I TAKE IT SERIOUSLY AND IT AFFECTS MY DAY MOST OF THE TIME. I SHOULDNT BE THAT WAY BUT WE ARE HUMAN. I NEVER CAME CLOSE TO A SCALE BEING SO HUGE ALL MY ADULT LIFE AND THATS WHY I MAKE SURE ITS THERE NOW. IT KEEPS ME HONEST AS I CAN BE LOL AND I PRETTY MUCH CAN TELL WHEN THE WATER INTAKE AINT BEEN THAT GOOD OR TO MUCH SALT INTAKE OR EVEN TO MUCH FOOD INTAKE THAT WAS A NONO SORTA. JUST TRY NOT TO LET IT GET YOU DOWN. I AM SO NOT WORTHY OF TELLING YOU THIS BUT WANT YOU TO KNOW WE ARE ALL IN THE SAME BOAT. I FLOAT BACK AND FORTH ALOT AND GUESS ITS A NORMAL THING?? WHO KNOWS... I CAN SAY AT ALL THE MONTHS NOW THAT I AM OUT OF WLS IT HAS COME TO A HALT. I HAVE FINALLY HIT THE RED GA CLAY ROAD NOW... SO WILL TAKE IT FOR WHAT ITS WORTH BUT THE BEING HARD ON OURSELVES IS A GIVEN I GUESS. I HAVE GOT TO LEARN SOMEHOW THAT WE CANT LET IT CONTROL YOUR EVERY MOOD. THINK ABOUT IT... WE HAVE BEEN SO CONSUMED WITH WEIGHT EVER SINCE BEFORE WLS.. OR AT LEAST I KNOW I HAVE WITH HAVING TO TRY TO LOSE SOME BEFORE WLS.. AND THATS WHY I STILL TODAY HAVE THE HABIT OF WEIGHING EVERYDAY. MY FAMILY THINKS I NEED REHAB WITH THAT... THEY DONT THINK ITS NORMAL BUT THEN AGAIN THEY HAVENT WALKED IN OUR POOR WLS SHOES LOL.... SO HANG IN THERE AND WE ARE TOTALLY THERE FOR EACH OTHER.... IT WILL CHANGE WHEN YA LEAST EXPECT IT... HUGS MARGE

Thanks for your thoughtful words, Marge.  I think you hit the nail on the proverbial head when you talked about being consumed with our weight.  I spent all my teenage years and my adult life trying to lose weight.  And now I'm basically comfortable in my body and am at a weight I could live with long-term, but still have the mind set that I need to lose weight because some dang chart says I should weigh no more than 165 pounds.  And when the numbers on the scale go in the wrong direction, I feel liked I've failed.  Understand that I KNOW I have not failed - losing 195 pounds is not failure.  But that doesn't necessarily change how I feel in that moment when I see the higher numbers on the scale.  I'll just have to keep working on this issue... I'm truly grateful to have my OH buds to discuss this stuff with, because folks who have not walked in our shoes just do not understand.  They may be understanding, but they do not get it in the same way you guys do.  Thanks again for being there for me Kellie

Kellie,

It is my prayer for today too!

Hugs,

Lori

 

Hi, Lori.  It's my prayer many days, for various reasons.  But somehow, it's almost always appropriate!   Kellie

I'm not one for tattoos, but perhaps I need to tattoo this on my body, if I can find a place that isn't either sagging (most of my body) or refusing to let go of fat (my thighs, which also sag. ) Sagging skin is gross enough, but sagging bags of fat are quite repulsive.  But I digress. You'd think the Higher Deity would cut us a break or two, especially when we are working hard on our goals, or when we get sidetracked and get back on goal. Thanks for putting this out there, I certainly need it after yesterday's weigh-in! Kix

Perhaps we can get matching tattoos, but finding a non-saggy patch of skin would be a challenge!!!   I agree that you'd think we'd get a little slack now and then.  But perhaps the Higher Deity thinks we've received enough benefits with all the blessings we already have...  Sometimes when I'm having a pity party, someone will remind me just how lucky I am (good job, great health nowadays, fabulous friends, good relationship with family, decent pay, good health care benefits, nice house, etc.).  And then I just have to leave the pity party and be mindful of just how much I have to be thankful for....   Anyway, sometimes I MUST remind myself to look at the big picture, not the tiny snapshot that is today. Kellie

Don't forget to be thankful for the balmy weather in your neck of the country.  I understand it's practically hula weather in Cleveland these days! Speaking of big pictures, I just posted a rare photo of me when I was BIG.  It's only a head shot, but you'll get the drift! Kix

Thanks for posting a picture Kix.  My friend the other day told me that she would never have guessed how high my weight was from the head shots I kept sending her.  She was amazed that I had weighed 440 because it didn't show in my face.  I said "it wasn't all on my face, most of it was everywhere else" BUT I kind of thought she was crazy.  Until I looked at your picture, and now I can see her perspective because you didn't carry that much weight on your face.  You looked great then but now you look fantastic!  Congratulations again on everything you've accomplished.