Rededicating my commitment

This is a difficult topic for me but I must put everything on the table. I have been on a fast road going down slowly. Recently I gained 5 pounds and felt like everything was over that I was on my way back to 455 pounds. I felt alone and was beginning to fall into depression and this was not a good place to be in. I began to eat and eat and eat. I was waking up in the middle of the night eating all kinds of things slowly falling. Then I got on the scale and to my surprise I had gained??? How did that happen?? Well I will tell you how that happen not doing what I was suppose to do is how that happen… Not exercising and taking good care of myself… that I show that happen. I read about it everyday and vowed that it wouldn’t happen to me and it did. So what do I do now???? Get ready for this because it may help you one day too…… GET UP OFF YOU A@@ AND QUIT IT RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It is time for a change and guess what it is inside of you… you just have to figure how to make it happen like NIKE says “JUST DO IT”. No more excuses just do it will be my new motto. I know this may not make any since to some but two weeks of doing wrong is long enough and I feel as if I have come a long way from were I use to be. In the past I would have kept on eating until I gained all of my weight back…. That isn’t going to happen I am on my way to 250 right now I am back at 287 but that’s ok I know what I have to do and I am DOING IT!!!!!

 

Today

 

Gym at 4:45 am 65 min of cardio

Breakfast

Protien shake

 

One day at a time is all I can say.

 

Lorraine

WOW Lorraine, You hit the nail on the head for me too..... I have slowly started eating things I know I shouldn't ,things I would never had dreamed of even looking at 6 months ago. I mean 19 months of changing my eating habits, and those old habits are still lurking.. I too have to tell myself "enough is enough" Thanks for the post..It also feels good to know I am not alone.. Good luck Lynn

Lynn,  We can do this. I just never want to get comfortable with eating again and letting it control my life anymore. "enough is enough". Be blessed.  Lorraine

Lorraine -  Great post - and great job of getting back into control.  You know what you want, and you know what you need to do to get there.  Keep it up girl!   Just do it is right!

Thanks it's hard to be honest with yourself but it was time. I will make it to goal

Hi, Lorraine.  I can totally relate to where you are coming from.  Some days I feel like I'm one glazed donut away from being 396 pounds again.  And it seems like it's so hard to lose now and SO easy to gain.  I'd lost down to 197.2 and today I weighed 205.8; that's a gain of 8.6 pounds in 11 days.  Granted, I'm about to start my period so I know (hope) some of that is water gain, but 8.6 pounds in 11 days?  That's not all water.  And although I do eat more some days than others, I don't take in enough calories that I should be gaining that much.  It's frustrating...   I try to start every day with a fresh slate and a fresh attitude.  I work hard not to let those old habits sneak back in to my routine.  I work hard to eat healthy and exercise.  I work hard to get in my fluids (although some days are better than others in that regard).  Some days it's easier than others.  Some days, like the past few days, when the hormones are raging because Aunt Flow is on the way, I'm a ravenous, raging bit@# and it makes me crazy.  On days like this, it's the support of good friends, on OH and otherwise, that keeps me going.   So I'll join you on your JUST DO IT campaign.  We haven't come this far to backslide now.  So grab those bootstraps, pull yourself up, and keep right on steppin'.  We can and will finish the journeys we have started.   Kellie

Welcome to the JUST DO IT CLUB glad you could make it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lorraine, I swear there must be something in the air lately.  If you saw my posting about no longer being AWOL, you'll see that I had similar issues.  In my case, I found myself eating slices of Kraft American Cheese (which isn't even really food, if you read the ingredients!) all the time.  I'd wake up at 3 AM and eat cheese. I'm back on track now, and I'm glad to hear you are, too.  I missed you, girlfriend! Kix

I love cheese.. Any kind of cheese is fine with me. I have found that if I plan thing go a lot better for me. Today I planned my meals pretty well. Because I get up so early my eating start early. I had a protien shake with a bananna blended in it. then I had a salad and for lunch I had a Weigh****cher meal. I just ate a 100 calorie snack and when I get home I will have another protien shake since I will be busy tonght. when I get home tonight I will have some more veggies an a piece of meat that should good on the protien for the day.    I also exercised in which I am very proud. So if things go right today will have a wonderful ending and a new begining all at the same time.  keep up the good work Kix you have done a great job.

I admire your resolve.  You can do this!!  I believe in you.  Loris