Help!!! What am I doing wrong?????

Carrie, you are gorgeous.  Please don't be a slave to numbers!!  Size 16 is not huge, it is the size worn by a tall woman with a large frame and attractive curves.  Are you healthy?  Do you eat well?  Do you do aerobic excercise?  It sounds like you do, and it sounds like your body has decided the size it needs to be.  Now let your brain and your heart celebrate that, intsead of letting this crazy, thin-obsessed world freak you out.  Re-read your post and notice how many numbers are in it. Now  forget about the numbers!  Numbers are artificial, made-up standards by which we judge ourselves harshly.  Judge yourself kindly by what is real.  Am I strong?  Am I healthy?  Do I eat right?  Will my body do the things I want it to do?  If those answers are yes, then you are a total success.  Please don't ever be disgusted with yourself.  You have done something remarkable - now accept it as the accomplishment that it is, and put your energy into living your life instead of counting pounds and calories.  I am sending you a big email hug!