I GOT A DATE, I GOT A DATE, I GOT A DATE ....... :)

Hi De Dee,

Thank you for writing dear. I appreciate it. Yes, I have been through it and back again. I keep thinking that something is gonna happen and I will never get to where I wanna be. I know that my profile sounds so negative in places but I posted how my feelings were at that moment. I am normally a happy person but the way that I have been having to live has took a toll on my emotions. I thank GOD above for his tender mercies. He is always with me and especially now. Yes, You are right, It did take some guts to post those pics on my profile but I wanted to try and help folks somehow, and I hope that one day I can look back and say ok, I did all this for a good reason and I helped someone get the guts to LIVE again. I am gonna get someone to video tape me going into the hospital and to also keep my camera busy the whole time I am in that place. I want pics of me before going into the O room and pics after I come out of it while I am in recovery. Hec, I would even allow it to be done on the internet if I could hook up with the right ones like Carnie Wilson did that time. I just want to educate and help folks out their. I would not wish my life on anyone the way I have been having to go through life day in and day out for the last 4 years. It is terrible. Thank you again for the letter. You will never know how much I appreciate it dear. I like your ticker idea I may use it on some of the boards that I go too on the computer. Thanks......

Renee