Posting this accountability thread is like sitting on a bus talking to myself.  Few bother to read these posts per the number of views..  Yet when I don't post at all I get pm's about it.  Not sure what that's all about (not even the slightest clue), but I will try to post more often.  If folks start participating I'll do my best to post daily.  

Anyhoo... 

My weight is coming down and I am nearly on the verge of a "normal" bmi at 147.2 lbs fully clothes during mid day.  The good news is I've improved since my worst post goal weigh in ever which was 163 lbs in September.  The bad news is I am still about 8 lbs over my lowest weight and 13 lbs above my desired max weight as discussed and agreed upon with my surgeon.

Weighing daily helps me focus.  Weighing after lunch ensures I get my highest weight of the day.  I never want to see the scale over the 130's so I've got plenty of work to do. 

May I stray from plan?  Not if I want to make my goal. 

May I tell myself I'm making good progress?  Not if I use objective measures.  

Weight, bmi, body fat percentage, body measurements plus my daily food tracking all indicate I've improved.  Still, I deserve no prizes.  My body holds on to fat like it is a coveted commodity.  I've always known this yet my adherence to plan has been well below even mediocre. 

No patting myself on the back for progress today.  It is time to work at it like I really mean it.  Then maybe I can offer self congratulations in the not too distant future.  I'm doing better.  I need to do my best.

1.     You can have one or the other.  The ability to breath underwater and swim like a natural aquatic species or the ability to fly through the air and maneuver like a natural flying species.  Which do you choose?
I seriously doubt I would like the sensation of flying so I choose the water over the air.

2.     Now that you've made a choice, what would be your first experience with this ability?
Possible hazards of under water life leave me not so keen for adventure.  I'd have one amazing snorkeling expedition for sure.

3.     You can bring someone along and they will be granted the same.  Who would that be?
My DD would be my snorkeling buddy.  We'd have a great time.  

4.     You can keep this forever or experience it and pass it on.  Would you keep or pass it?
Definetly enjoy the experience and pass it on.  I can't imagine what I would do with this when I'm not on vacation in the tropics.

5.     You have not passed it on and you receive an offer for purchase.  The price can be set in cash or any item, cir****tances, conditions, etc you choose.  What would you sell it for?
I would not sell it.  I'd pass it to my big sis because I think she'd have fun with it.  Hopefully she'll take me snorkeling.  It would be sad if only the richest of the rich could have the experience.  Were I to sell it, I think that is what would happen to it.  I'd rather pass it on and share it with the hope that each successor  does the same.
 

Congratulations!  Keep on it and keep the wl going.  Stay on plan through the holidays.  Objectively measure your progress at least weekly.  Learn and internalize new habits now so they become automatic and feel natural.  This will help you down the road when you are posting about being six years out, at goal, and maintaining it.  Best wishes for your continued success. 

Obesity is filled with complex physical and emotional issues.  The study of obesity causes and cures is in its infancy as far as I am concerned.  There is so much we must work out for ourselves.  Thankfully we have the BAF fam for support. 

I can call fat curvy and slender skinny.  I can buy small sizes at stores where clothing is more generously cut.  I can tell myself that I am no longer fat and the world does not look at me as a fat person anymore.  True? Perhaps should I convince myself it is true. 

Bottom line:  My weight is above my lowest post op weight

                         My bmi indicates that I have moved from the healthy normal to the unhealthy overweight category

                         My body measurements have increased

                         My body fat percentage per both calculation methods are above my target

I can lie to myself; however, objective measures tell the truth like it or not.  I have much work to do.