I'm Still Around, It is the end of the year so I have been busy

Hey Yall

I am just popping in the let you all know that i'm still here, the end of the school year is my busiest time so I just don't get on to post anything. 

I have to let you all know something I was considering just 2 weeks ago.  I sent in my paperwork to Dr. Rabkin in San Francisco to have my RNY revised to the DS.  Yep, I did because I'm tired of this fight and I heard so much about it being less of a struggle with the DS. 

Weeelll.... after going to my Dr. for my 6 year anniversary check up last week I made the decision that I am not going to go through with it because the malabsorbtion is maddening, not to mention the procedure is so complex and it's not worth the risk.   I had a hard time with the RNY and it is not fair to Becca to risk another surgery especially one that is so complex and has the potential risk of something going really bad.

So my Dr wants me to go on Opti Fast for 3 months to see if my body is capable of losing weight and try to figure out why the hell my bypass only worked for a few months before it conked out.  Well I told her she could suck my strap because there is no way in hell that I am going 3 months without eating.  LOL.  OK,  I didn't really say that but I wanted to.

So when I refused to do opti fast they then wanted me to just eat greek yogurt with protein powder in it for 3 months, I asked them if they could do that and she said I don't think I could do it for a few days so I told her i'll figure it out myelf one of these days.  So here I stand as I have always stood with no answers, with little hope, but still with motivation to keep trying, but even that is draining.

I leave for my trip in exactly 2 weeks today so I am doing fat smash out of desperation even though I know it's going to eat my muscles up like pac man eating cheeze it's, but I can't fit a dam thing in my closet.   I'm going shopping tomorrow and try to find something to pull up over this big ass and gutt, and something that won't make me look like an absolute blimp in pictures.  

So that's it yall, I am busy with the end of school, i'm still fat, i'm still lifting heavy weights, I haven't been working out cause the knee is so messed up I can't, well besides the pool workouts that is.

Ok, this is long enough.    Later yall

 Hey I'm glad your ok enjoy your trip an worry when u get back wow the same thing for 3 months huh yuk

I wish I had the right words to say to you Lee, but I have no clue whats going on since I'm just getting started.

Do you think it could be thyroids or hormones or something. I know your young so please don't take it personal lol but it have to be something behind this madness.  

You'll be in my prayers and in my heart..you and Becca enjoy each other and have a wonderful time on vacation and forget about all your troubles.

I have had every test known to man many, many, many times.   I think i'm just meant to be fat.

Thanks for calling me young  :)

maybe its a good idea to go on vacation, re-energize and try again, weightloss is a never ending battle but since you have to use the tool you got, you can come back refreshed and ready to start again.....

I will definatey workout on vacation because I am going to eat like a fat girl on vacation.  I always workout on vacation.

Hi Lee!

Sorry hear that your knee is messed up, I hope it heals soon.  I definitely feel you on the workouts during vacation.  I don't know why but my husband, who does not work out, works out with me on vacations too.  Its crazy, but I'm glad I do and love it as a matter of fact.  I would probably not be able to fit any of my clothes on the way home from vacations if I didn't. 

You enjoy your vacaction, I know it is well needed and deserved.  Maybe when you get back all that exercising you did will linger on and motivate you to continue.  Just don't give up.  Take care and enjoy!

Lia D

Thanks Lia,

Motivation to work out is never a problem, it is the bad eating.

Lee, I don't know your story either, but it sounds like you have been through a lot. I hope when you get back, you get this figured out. How much weight do you still need to lose? There has to be something that can help you without you going through another surgery. I will be praying that God gives you the answer.