Well the emergency came and I'm still Fat, My sister Died
LEE
on 12/16/11 2:04 pm, edited 12/16/11 2:10 pm
on 12/16/11 2:04 pm, edited 12/16/11 2:10 pm
Well guys it's as if I had a preminition or something because for the past 2 months I have been thinking what if someone dies and I am still fat will I be to embarrassed to go back home.
Well I got a call today and my sister who we just found out had breast cancer died 4 hours ago and just two days ago I found out that my other sister has cancer. My oldest brother has stage 4 lung cancer and colon cancer, my aunt died 3 months ago of bladder cancer and my dad a few years ago of prostate cancer.
Cancer is tearing my family apart and i'm scared. I just went and had a endoscope yesterday to see if I had throat cancer because my throat has been burning for like 4 years, thank God I got the all clear.
I don't think i'm going home for the funeral because I cannot bring myself to see my sister body laying there lifeless. I am so glad I got to see her this past summer. I'm am more sad for my mom than for myself because this is the first child she has lost and it is hurting her bad. I broke down and called her even though she can't bare the thought of having a gay daughter she was able to talk to me and I felt really bad.
Anyway I just wanted to let you all know that people go to fast, so say you love them now. I'm so glad I got the chance to say good bye to my sister, if I close my eyes I can still feel her check on mine and her belly on my belly as we hugged and feeling her hand on my back and she whispered I love you baby when she saw me. OK>.... OK..... I gotta end this before the tears start.
Tell someone you love them NOW...... NOW DAMIT, go now and tell them.
Well I got a call today and my sister who we just found out had breast cancer died 4 hours ago and just two days ago I found out that my other sister has cancer. My oldest brother has stage 4 lung cancer and colon cancer, my aunt died 3 months ago of bladder cancer and my dad a few years ago of prostate cancer.
Cancer is tearing my family apart and i'm scared. I just went and had a endoscope yesterday to see if I had throat cancer because my throat has been burning for like 4 years, thank God I got the all clear.
I don't think i'm going home for the funeral because I cannot bring myself to see my sister body laying there lifeless. I am so glad I got to see her this past summer. I'm am more sad for my mom than for myself because this is the first child she has lost and it is hurting her bad. I broke down and called her even though she can't bare the thought of having a gay daughter she was able to talk to me and I felt really bad.
Anyway I just wanted to let you all know that people go to fast, so say you love them now. I'm so glad I got the chance to say good bye to my sister, if I close my eyes I can still feel her check on mine and her belly on my belly as we hugged and feeling her hand on my back and she whispered I love you baby when she saw me. OK>.... OK..... I gotta end this before the tears start.
Tell someone you love them NOW...... NOW DAMIT, go now and tell them.
Salty Pickle a.k.a. Lee
(((((MsLee))))) I know there is no consolation except the time to deal with it. We do get those intense feelings and our instincts are usually correct.
Right now weight, size, sexualty, family quibbles and wars are irrelevant. You just help each other cope with your loss. Its perfectly understandable that you do not want to travel home for the funeral. Seeing the lifeless shell is heart breaking. You want to hold the memories of her life.
I am so glad you went home recently. While I was thinking of your mother and brother, we know too well death can claim us anytime. You are blessed to have had this time to spend with your sister.
Since October, having lost four relatives or members of our extended family, the message to share the love is still raw with me. One of our lost was under forty-five, seemingly healthy and working out after work when she collapsed.
Even if its just a fb note or an e-card, share the love with your loved ones. There is no predictig life or death.
Right now weight, size, sexualty, family quibbles and wars are irrelevant. You just help each other cope with your loss. Its perfectly understandable that you do not want to travel home for the funeral. Seeing the lifeless shell is heart breaking. You want to hold the memories of her life.
I am so glad you went home recently. While I was thinking of your mother and brother, we know too well death can claim us anytime. You are blessed to have had this time to spend with your sister.
Since October, having lost four relatives or members of our extended family, the message to share the love is still raw with me. One of our lost was under forty-five, seemingly healthy and working out after work when she collapsed.
Even if its just a fb note or an e-card, share the love with your loved ones. There is no predictig life or death.
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Jamille
Lee I am so sorry to hear about your sister. My heart breaks for you. Death is always hard but it seems that the holidays just amplifies the pain. Please don't let what's in your head prevent you from going home IF that's what you want. You don't want to have to deal with the I should haves later on. I will be praying for you and your family as you deal with your sister's death.
April
April
Lee so sorry to hear of your loss.....and you have to do what you feel is best for you as far as traveling back home....you could go just to spend time with family and not go to funeral and tell ur mom why and let her know you wanted to be with the people you love right now but just cant bear seeing your sister that way and want your last memory of her to one of her alive. As far as weight...dont let it keep u from doing something u may later regret
There is nothing like a mother's love....we get over and look past and forgive lots of things because our kids are always our babies
There is nothing like a mother's love....we get over and look past and forgive lots of things because our kids are always our babies
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