Feeling Hopeless Yall !!! I need my Positive back

Hi Yall

I come to you with a humble heart and a lot of fear that I will not be making this family reunion cause my ass is still fat.

I took the day off from work so that I can think about what it is I need to do and how I can do it.   I am going to go for a long walk and think and try to get myself back in a positive space.

So please don't let my mis-step discourage anyone, but I warned you that when I hit a certain point I hit a wall and well here I am at this ******g wall that always without fail smacks me right in my face.  So here I stand and I have to push pass it.

Please lord help me with this next level,  I really need to push myself hard to get through this next level.   I feel so discouraged but I am still hopeful.

YO Lee... I hit a wall for over two years... And if I can get passed it... I promise you that you will be fine... I'm not gonna brow beat you or anything like that.. I'll leave that for somebody else... I just wanted you to know that You can just treat it like a new day or you can make it just like the old ones... I don't know you well, but from what I can tell from your post, your very passionate and pretty strong... So just push harder... you got it... I'm hear if you need anyone...

((((( MrTyree ))))),  a 2+ year wall takes a lot of tenacity to scale.  Congrats to you.  How did you manage not to just think "Abandon all hope ye who enter here"?  It must have been a personal hell.  We all need to know that it is possible to get past long desert periods. 

Hey Tyree

Thanks man for the positives, lord knows I need it right now.   It's not even like i'm messing up, it's more my mind is back into failure mode and when that happens my ass is not far behind. 

(((((MsLee)))))    I'm also on edge right now.  Feeling discouraged and unmotivated and having allowed myself to slip "just a little" with the intention of making it up later this week.  We can't let ourselves fall further into the abyss. 

At this moment I'm feeling trapped at the bottom of a well.  We start out strong but eventually feel like screaming will it ever end.  Well it never will end.  Loose weight, stick with diet and exercise, and life will be good blah,blah,blah... But bodies repeatedly betray us so we slip feeling like "What's the use?".  The little slip ups may not be too bad plus we've measured and analyzed them.  Yet the results are generally worse than one should expect.  And on it goes until the next time we get fired up and "go for it" again after having moved backwards. 

Let's pick ourselves up without a serious back slide.  We've both recently ventured into territories we know we should avoid.  My pastry, your candy, now lets get out of there.  Lets look for alternatives for what we really want vs what we really need so at least we are not eating dull boring foods.  Lets find some interim mini goal to occupy us.  Especially if it takes our minds off this weight/ size goal.  I badly need a hobby. 

We're discouraged so we need to find some area of life that is encouraging to focus on.  Something that will make doing this thing less arduous and more just another part of another day.  Myopia is part of the issue.  "This" has taken center stage in life making it even harder cause we get no relief. 

You NEED to go to your reunion.  You are beautiful, wonderful, smart, witty Lee fat or thin.  Your family deserves the pleasure of your company and you deserve the pleasure of theirs. 

I suck,  LOL. 

I need some dam vegetable ideas, i'm about done with zuchini and yellow squash.  I still like them but I need something else to help me through it.

I walked for a hour today, and by the time I got back home I wasn't even tired I was just bored as hell, even with music I was bored. 

So today is 130 days and there is no more dam time to screw up.  Geez,  I only ate bad for 3 days and it wasn't all that bad but I feel terrible.  So I will be back on it because I don't have any other choice.

I am almost tempted to try some dam diet pills, but I don't dare cause they scare me.

You know I'm lazy so instead of starting a new thread:

NEW DAY NEW ATTITUDE!!!

Today you will take your positive back MsLee.  And so will I, and so will all the others out there thinking can't instead of knowing can. 

You have done this before so CAN is a proven fact.  This is just a repeat performance.  Another go round.  Proof positive of your abilities combined with your strength and perserverance.  

You are perfectly capable of doing this.  I am looking forward to the pictures of you in those loose comfy shorts headed to your reunion.  Go get yourself something fitted that looks slamming on you and shows off your progress so far.  Looking good helps you feel good about yourself.  

OWN YOUR POSITIVE, ITS YOURS SO TAKE IT BACK. 

sometimes the stress of worrying is the worst, i had to see my family last year and was so bummed that i didnt lose more weight that i forgot they had not seen me since the year before so they wouldnt even notice, some didnt even know i had surgery so they were really surprised!!! so i stressed myself out for nothing!  i do better when i mix up my food and excercise to get your body out of shock and back to losing again, i would say try a lot of cardio and biking if you didnt try if before, protein shakes also if you can tolerate them.  hang in there gurls!

I'm on amphetamines for fatigue also Rx'd as diet pills for many folks.  I can still eat a room sized buffet all by my lonesome, lol.  Cept of course MsGrouchyPouch would kick my @$$ with the pain of being to full.  I don't get sick from anything except drinking too soon after eating. 

We must learn to stagger our depression.  I hit me so hard yesterday.  Thank God Molly was online at myfitnesspal.com  I'm not much of a cryer but thinking about how little progress I've made since my last weigh in there really got to me. 

Lee you will be fine just press toward.  Don't dare stay away from the family reunion because of your weight.  Your family loves you no matter what size you are.


Michelle