A confession

I deleted it, but decided to put it back.  That's how I was feeling.




Today has not been a good food day.  I haven't pigged out, but I've been Jonesing  all morning.

Ever get a restless feeling?   Fidgety? 

Not hungry.  Just feel like EATING something?  Right now and it has to be a lot of it.

ANYthing, as long as it's sweet and then something salty/greasy to wa**** down and then something else sweet as a chaser.  It's almost a fluttery physical sensation like you want to jump out of your skin. 

It's annoying.   I hate this feeling.  

I've been drinking cups and cups and CUPS of water this morning.  I nuked it so it would go down easy and keep me full between meals.  I refuse to graze today. 

I do not have a normal relationship with food.  I don't know if I ever will.  I just deal with it the best way I can. 

Have you ever experienced this?

LOL! You psyched me out good. Thought I was losing my mind for a minute...almost had me getting ready to call my doctor..LOL. Thanks for reposting it...hope my input helps a little.

You are not alone Sue.    This too shall pass and journey will continue !

I went through this very feeling during the holiday break.  I caught myself and redirected my focus to pick up some fruit to eat, which I was really desiring.  But my head told me the chocolate covered peanuts and brownies were better...  Fortunately, willpower kicked in, and I focused on a new task.

J

What are you feeling Sue? Are you bored? Get a check on your feelings and make a plan to get out and do something special for yourself...something FUN...!  I have that feeling a lot and its usually associated with boredom and just feeling hohum and in need of something exciting to do. Food has always been my fall back. With kids especially, its so easy for us to put the focus on them and to a certain degree it makes our own existence a little more mundane...at least this is how I feel. I am now always planning something for ME....I like looking forward to something...it takes the edge off of my eating too. 

Fun?  What's that?

Well...you might have other interests but for me...these things are fun!


BOTANICAL GARDENS








HIKING






CAMPING





FISHING





MUSEUMS

The botanical gardens ar really beautiful! 

My favorite getaway thing used to be hoppig a plane and going to music festivals.  Can't remember the last time I went to one...

When it comes to dysfunctional eating, you are never alone.  I'm glad you posted this. 

OH HELL YEAH I get that feeling.  Way too often.  Been living it all of last week hence the popsicle and the protein bar overload.  I can also substitute shredded cabbage/ lettuce/ spinach and zerro or low cal dressing with herbs added.  I have mastered the low cal zero weight gain binge.  If I have non nutritious foods I work it into my calorie load and sacrafice protein. 

Fo me its generally an AVOIDANCE technique.  I don't want to deal with something.  I am too deeply imersed in reality.  I need to delay facing an issue.  The list goes on.  

You bet when I'm on OH all day I'm avoiding too.  See me on the main board?  Unless replying to a friend it means my pouch is already full and I'm still hiding out from reality. 

The only real cure is for me to confront the issue.  Avoidance is so opposite of who I've always been.  I'm a problem child with complexities right now. 


I picked up my computer to avoid reality.  MsSoBlessed, you just slapped me with it.        Thanks.