DEXA scan results - and no - it ain't pretty

It's a process no doubt and lets face it it, even if you were right on the numbers T...you'd still be doing the work because that's what it takes to get there and that's what it takes to stay there!!! You have that spirit of excellence no matter what!

As for me emoting at the gym...yep, I sure am and I don't give a hot damn either!  I truly can't help it and its not all that bad really.   Yesterday, I was on my last set of crunches and I let out a groan just as two people where walking past me and yep..they just stared at me.  (Of course I did sound like a dying cow) I honestly think they thought I hurt myself...which I did!  I will be joining a new gym shortly and hopefully I won't "offend" the new crowd but...maybe it'll help my dating situation!  Ya neva know~

Wow, you're one of my hall of fame sheros.  Sorry some documentation got to you. 

When I'm on that track, thinking I'm going into cardiac arrest, I remember your run in Vegas with Jesus and how you put it down in the gym morning after morning.  It reminds me that I won't actually die trying to exercise, I'm getting stronger and this thing will pay off. 

You said the lady at the gym was you 5 years ago when you were +300.  The lady at the gym, me and so many others think you are the bomb.  We can't wait to be where you are today.

Do your thing and keep on handling your business.

 Thank Lisa - and you just reminded me, I need to have a lil 'chit chat' with JC before Saturday - I ain't drinkin no more, so when I ask for the footprint in the sand favor - I should be able to cash in....... hehehehehehhe - yea - I'm depressed about this, but I still got jokes!!!! 

It just bugs me that I am where I am and the numbers are what they are supposed to be.  I feel like I am doing what I am supposed to be doing - my homies who had surgery say that they can always count on me to be on the grind and serious than a mofo with my ish - my running homie says she intentionally got me into running because she needed motivation and she KNEW that if she just got me a lil, itty bitty bit interested - I'd research the hell out of it and come with a killer program that would help her.  

that heffa!!!! lol - she's improved her times and overall performance in the last weeks since Vegas tho - I can't believe she didn't even know the proper footwear!!! I just got her to alter her pre run nutrition.........

Ok - I'm rambling - but I get your point - I am doing all the things I said I wanted WLS to be able to do.  If I get anymore mobility, I'll be flying!  And thank you for the perspective - I recall once saying I didn't care what the # on the scale said as long as I was a size 10 (or 12 - hell, I think I said 14 or 16 at one point) I think I may take some time to re-read my journal and my weight loss blog, time to remember where I came from. 

Thanks for the reminder! 

Keep the BMI paper (but put it away).  You'll need it one day when you overcome this and are going for something else that is against your odds-  Astronaut, President of the United Arab Emirates, Plastic Surgeon, and whatever else you come up with for your bucket list.

Hmmmm - lesseee...

astronaut?  nah - can't deal with cramped spaces and the inability to leave when I get ready - same reason I don't do cruises or train trips - mofos that know me will tell you - I plan to scramble whenever! you need a gps tracker at an event to make sure I'm still there! LMAO

president of UAE - man - that's a big one, but I promised myself I would wear less black these days, so the whole woman's covering up with robes isn't good for me - plus, that whole stoning thing as a penalty???  anh - first mofo to throw a pebble would see me turn into Sophia at that gas station in Color Purple - and we all know THAT ain't work out for her........

Plastic surgeon - hmmm - I cut a mean steak - you might be onto something right thur...... LOL!!!!!

Thanks Lisa!!!!!

I'm sorry the numbers weren't what you'd hoped for.  It's understandable that your immediate response is disappointment.  I would suggest that you take some time to process this new information. 

This isn't about being cute or wearing a certain size.  You've been battling diligently against a chronic life threatening disease.  When we're morbidly obese, not only are our fat cells larger, we also produce more of them.  Our bodies are doing everything they can to resist losing that fat.  We can't always predict or control how our bodies will respond to what we do.  All we can do is our best.

If you had not been working as hard as you've been doing so far, where you would be right now? 
  You are not a failure.

 Thanks lady - and yea - without all this work - hell - without WLS to start with, I wouldn't be here like this today.  386 was no joke.  

Yea - I do need to sit back and process this - it's messing with my head really bad.  I guess this cold I also have isn't helping AND it's TOM - the perfect 'mental' storm, I suppose. 

I'm still in the battle tho - I may lose, but one thing mofos know about me - YOU GOTTA BRANG SOME TO GET SOME

 I'm still a fighter! 

A fighter is what you are INDEED!! KEEP YA HEAD UP.

Ahh dayum, Yo...

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Why don't you organize a BAF sponsored Newd Walk in the Park to help you get over your blues?  With your celebrity status alone you could probably get a few hundred BAF regulars, lurkers, and wannabe's to sign up and walk proud in their birthday suits for charity.  All money raised will go to the United Stripper College Fund of course.

Hope you feel better, Kid.  

@United Stripper College Fund

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