5 years ago today!!! It's my surgiversary yall!!!!!

From my blog.........

Today marks my 5 year surgiversary.  Yes - 5 years.  I can't believe it and I finally know what they mean when they say time flies........ it's been a remarkable journey and had you told me any of the things that I've experienced would happen - I would have cussed you out and called you a bald faced lie! LOL

As of this morning, I am 209 lbs.  From my original starting weight of 386, that's 177lbs lost and KEPT off.  However, this is the highest weight I've been back to - and I am NOT pleased.  My physical activity has increased substantially in the recent months - so my size hasn't picked up.  Mofos try to convince me it's muscle, but the fat girl in my head isn't believing it for ONE SECOND!!!!

At 386lbs, I couldn't walk half a flight of stairs without wanting to cry - running after my daughter was something I only daydreamed about.  Today - this morning, in fact, - I ran.... RAN  2.3 miles in 31min.  And while I was sweating like a ho in the front pew of Sunday church service, I wasn't winded.  I can BREATHE easy and exercise.  My knees don't hurt.  My back doesn't give out on me after I mop the kitchen floor.  I can walk into a store, go to the Misses section, grab a XL shirt and buy it WITHOUT trying it on because I KNOW it will fit.......

And I no longer build my life around food.  No more rewarding myself with it - raise or promotion?  I bought a big screen TV and treated myself to a diamond ring.  My daughter has a 'win'?  Time to hit the arcade or the park to run and celebrate.  When I DO eat - I have a mini register of what choices I NEED to make and I CAN walk away from cake, cookies, pies and the bullshyt.... I KNOW I don't NEED them..........

Relationships are completely different for me now - I don't search for and long for love and in the midst of my longing, accept just any kind of treatment.  I DEMAND respect and I WILL and DO walk away if it's not what I expect.  I know my power and worth - I always DID know it, but I know now that I can stand alone and I will not be lonely.  I know that being held emotional hostage isn't love, it isn't respect, it isn't worth fighting to change - and damn sure ain't worth fighting to keep. 

Not much has been easy - but I can say it's all been worth every minute, every pain, every triumph, every heartache.  When Maya Angelou wrote 'Wouldn't trade nothing for my journey now' - I know just what she meant.  Even if I could, I wouldn't rework or rewrite a single minute - these last 5 years have been a lifetime within themselves - and a GREAT life at that. 

  Pics to come later today!!!!! 

Congratulations MM!  You're story is truly an inspiration.  I'm happy for you and keep up the good work.

thanks lady!

HAPPY SURGIVERSARY   HAPPY SURGIVERSARY  HAPPY SURGIVERSARY  HAPPY SURGIVERSARY  HAPPY SURGIVERSARY

YOU MADE 5 YEARS LOOK REAL GOOD

thanks lee!!!!!!  work that grease mustache girl! LMAO

Congratulations MM you are greats inspirations for all the newbies!!! Thanks for sharing your journey.

Thanks - hey - just remember, every newbie becomes an old head...... in time!

You have done awesome keep up the good fight!

My mama said knock em out tha box, kid!!! LMAOOOOO

thanks lady!

Thanks for sharing. I hope to be as successful as you are in 5 years. I know I can and will not take bullshyt from nobody but the cookies are starting to call a sista. I'm using will power though and I'm doing everything in power to walk away from them darn thangs. LoL

Anyways, this is a continuous journey. Good luck along the way.
M