OMG, I feel like a Fish out of Water
I honestly don't know what goes thru people's minds when they slowly let the scale creep back towards the old lifestyle, doing the old things, feeling the old feelings..not that i'm faulting anyone because each and every one of us is more than capable of going back there, that's why maintenance is so important.
For me, I feel better physically, emotionally, spiritually than I have ever in my nearly 47 years and am not losing that for anything or anyone.
Again, Steph, I applaud ur being honest with yourself in realizing that you COULD relapse into old habits, as we ALL can and probably have at some point.
47 years???? daaaaannnnnggggg.... LOL!!!! hehehehehe - I guess you really ARE at the end of your rope.......
ok, old folk jokes aside - I have been at 200 + since Jan - and hemming and hawwing about getting really serious - dawg, when 212 showed up Tuesday morning - that was my all hands on deck, grab the 9mm, the grenades, the pistols, hell - grab a damn AX!!!!! First thing is I knew it was water retention (that girlie thing we do every month - blow up like a damn puffer fish) but even on my WORST day I didn't break 200 even WITH that, so I KNEW KNEW KNEW I had to pull a MJ and look at the WO-man in the mirror.......
I promise you will be reading about my sucessful suicide ramming into a Krispy Kreme when the light came on for fresh donuts if I ever get over 220.......... news reporter will just say 'damn shame how she drove into the store, backed up, drove out FURTHER, then came BACK to level this mofo'..........
and AMEN on not giving up YOU for anyone - had a mofo try to tell me to GAIN weight cause HE liked 'thicker' women...... tell you what, cuz - Imma step aside and let you do your Jay-Z and get 'ON TO THE NEXT ONE' cause I aint' it!!!!!!
hmmm... so I was wondering - what ELSE happened 47 years ago besides someone smacking your azz while you cried?????
in 1963:
- the smiley face was invented :-)
- George C Wallace became Govenor of Alabama and penned the infamous 'segration now, segreation tomorrow and segregation forever!'
- Sylvia Plath committed suicide
- Alcatraz closed
- General Hospital debuted on ABC
- MLK wrote his famous 'Letter from Birmingham Jail
- Coca Cola debuts TAB cola
- first X-men comic book hit the stands
- Kennedy, then Oswald got shot
Hmmmm - some interesting stuff there - some good and some bad decisions made, some things that shaped the future - far as I can tell, you're in good company! and no, not saying you shoulda been shot...... but like Coke, you made some BAD calls...... like MLK, you've had some revelations, like Wallace, you've said some stupid ish but like General Hospital - you keep on keeping on and you're still good to watch!
...... yes - it's Friday, my boss is out of the office and I am bored. Researching and typing this has helped me look intense, focused, busy and impressed several folk with my typing speed........
bllleeechchhhh!!!!!LMAO!!!!!
and stop with the morbid death references, will ya? MLK didn't get to be your age - I get it!
........ Imma STILL raggin!!! How-some-eva..... I did have a 'flash' moment myself when a 24 yr old somethin hit on me....... when da HEYL did *I* become STELLA???!!!!!!!
hole up - we all off topic and ish...... lemme go before Steph come git me!!!!!
I haven't failed at Weight Loss. In fact I have accomplished much. But now that I am 2 1/2 years out, I am now in maintenace mode and maintaining is a B*TCH! It seem's like once I reached my goal "I" got complacent. I slacked on exercise, picked up some bad habits (not eating either)! Fortunately and UNFORTUNATELY my pouch still doesn't tolerate large consumptions of food and I still DUMP! However, I can DRINK my ASS off! I mean it seems like it just goes right through me. I get a little buzz, then VAMOOSE!!! It's gone and I'm on to the next drink! **Newbies, please be cautious of transfer addictions! Read up on them and take them serious! I'm not in the alcoholic stages but I party, network, and attend social events a lot (I mean A LOT) and I love to drink socially but this issue is causing the unwanted pounds to creep up on me! Many that know me personally and have seen me really don't see the problem or regain, but I know and have to keep in mind that a 5 lb gain quickly turns into 10, 15, 20, 30, oh wait, hellll naww, I'm not going that damn far! It doesn't even look right typing that ish!
Anyway, I'm back on the scene to hold myself accountable, gain some accountability buddies, and turn this wagon around before I lose control of the wheel.
Thanks for letting me VENT and be transparent. My first step to regaining some control! I feel so liberated
