Morning Folks

Good Morning all,  It has been a while I am up and at 'em with my foot in tow,

TRYING TO GET A RHYTHM BACK OF SENSIBLE CONSCIOUS EATING.

It seems to me that when you are working you have a schedule time to do everything, always rushing but getting things together.  When I was working, I had no problem getting my breakfast, lunch and snacks together and running out of the door.  Admittingly I was not losing any weight but my act was together.

Now since my last accident, I have all the time in the world to get my routine together.  Funny I was not working when I was post -op for a year.  That was a slamming year and my act was together. I could plan my day. Vitamins and water on the nightstand. wake up and get busy.   Make my morning protein shake. TAKE OUT X NUMBER OF BOTTLES OF WATER FOR THE DAY.  iF i LEFT THE HOUSE, SNACK WAS IN MY PURSE.  Protein Counter was in the Purse and I was ready for whatever.

What the heck happens?  You make good decisions, you change habits?  You have a whole new way of doing things and it is not hard to do.  You do it and it is done.  Case closed. At the end of the day you look back at your accomplishments and say ..GOOD day finished my plan better day tomorrow.

Five plus years later here I am...not even close to goal.  Not totally reverted back to old ways I don't think I will ever go back there.  But it is a struggle to do  things correctly.  I have been off my routine, it is a yoyo thing.
I could write for hours explaining the uncomfortable feeling I have, how I get thrown off because of this that or the other....This is not just a issue with diet and exercise , this is a life issue.   I realize that my issue that keeps me bound, unsuccessful at many things , frustrated, incapable of finishing projects, etc.  I realize this is an organizational issue.  Chaos should have been my birth name.  When people look at me, they don't see chaos, because of GOD's gifting many see peace....and in the midst of all the chaos in my life I do live peacefully.  

Short version.....I have mulled this over in my mind lately a lot.   My issues have nothing to do with diet, exercise, laziness it has to do with a root of disorder.  Today I vow to bring this into order.  I am reaching out.  I am asking for help.  I am asking for some of the people who love me to begin calling me each morning and making sure I start my day off with a plan, not just an eating plan, but supplements water, school work whatever..

There is greatness in me and I have always known that but I damn myself up with disorder and the root is probably fear of real success.  I am not having a pity party I am thinking this through, I don't usually bother people but there are a few things I do know.
1) it is never to late to start over 2) it is not too late to reach my goals in life 3) it is important to have support and good support I might ask.

So I am asking my friends to help me jumpstart me.....I have never used the buddy system in my life.  I bought the story that I was a loner and I do everything alone but I am going to try  to incorporate the help of those that know my pain to help me develop a pattern of good order.

Yeah I know long post!! DID YOU EXPECT ANYTHING DIFFERENT?  I love you all and pray for your success always, now I am praying for mine.  Even with my health struggles I know this can be done.

They say it takes 21 days to develop a habit, I need to redevelop what has been lost, anybody got the time and energy to help me ?

di

I'm not a true believer in fate or pre destination.  I view most of life as chance and opportunity as being prepared when coincidence pops up in life.

I'm aggitated this morning and was contemplating why this should be.  It did not start out that way.  I woke up, did some cardio and hit the wii fit.  Then total paralysis.  After some introspective I decided to write about it because the next step is the desire to eat.  I'm alone with the crackers and frosted mini wheats, not good.

Well, in heading to my profile I saw your post.  Somehow, there is a phychic connection at work here.   This is not thefirst time you have addressed what is chafing me at one percise moment. 

Keep up the long posts!  They mean so much to me. 

 

 

 

I have some of the same problems. I am alone in this fight against lossing weight.   I know if I do not plan for everything, all goes wrong. I must plan what I eat, drink, vitamins, exercise,etc or I will not get to my goal.  I will pray for you and thanks for your prayers. 

Keep posting and I will keep reading and responding, to help me change my habits, also.  Hope to change some before my surgery this summer.

Thanks
Ann

Hi there my sistah, I am willing and available to help.  I just posted begining on Monday about the protein train and I had to jump on myself, gaining so much weight  back, I never want to go back to where I was at 510 lbs.  I still have your number and I also need encouragement and love from my BAF family.  We are in this together and will alway be as long as we have breath in our bodies.  Love you and know that I do!