HOLD MY FEET TO THE FIRE! ACCOUNTABILITY POST

Accountability Mission: No Mercy and No Excuses

Hump day WEDNESDAY.  Are you off to the right start?  There is plenty of time to come correct.  Tell the whole truth and be accountable.  Are you doing it right this week? 

...All are welcome, jump in at anytime.

For reference:
5 Day Pouch Test website http://www.5daypouchtest.com/plan/theplan.html
5 Day Pouch Test Instructions
http://www.obesityhelp.com/forums/black_american/3995048/Hold-my-feet-to-the-fire-please-Accountability-Mision/
Protein Train Instructions http://www.obesityhelp.com/forums/black_american/3993571/Protein-Train-Educate-me-please/#32309205
Wagon Plan Instructions
http://www.obesityhelp.com/forums/black_american/3650242/The-Wagon-Plan-Get-back-on-the-wagon
Overeaters Anonymous
Online Meetings

No numbers yet but really no need.  They look pretty much like Mondays with fewer carbs.  I grazed from late afternoon on.  It was a binger day.  No "bad" foods but too much munching on everything.  Plus it was mostly take out so double the calories and fat of the same prepared at home.  Lets just say I got nothing right.

Two days of apathy are enough.  Time to get back on track.  I'm craving nuts and that is a bad sign for calories.  I have most of the use of my right arm back.   Perhaps I can drive today and get some vits to hold me until my order comes.  Gonna try and work off some of those extra calories today.  I need to get back into my workout routine. 

Hopefuly today will be a back to normal day.  No grazing, no binging, 100g protein, < 50g carbs, no take out, 80 oz liquids including a pint of plain water.  Hoping for a calorie deficit around 1000 for the day. 


ETA:
Yesterday's dirt: Calories 2356 (much worse than Mon) /  protein   172g/   net carbs   126g (not down by much)/   fat   110g (Whoaaa! Fried food bad.)

Today's plan including my hankering for some honey roasted cashews and my sf popsicle/fudgsicle/creamsicle treats but before low cal veggies: Calories 1257/ protein 130g/ net carb 50g/ fat 56g.

I've got two scoops of protein powder included.  One thing holds true: no protein powder and my calories go sky high cause I eat like famine is comming.  Two scoops a day keeps me sated.  You learn a lot from consistent tracking. 

Had a long talk with Becca last night,  she is tired of my weight dictating my life and my mood.  She misses the happy me and thinks I have to find a way to be happy where I am now.

It all makes aense until you take into consideration my weight gain.  I am going to try though to start accepting that I am just a fatter gal, but i'm not going to stop trying to lose it. 

You know my friends and family feel the same way.  They just did not come out with the heart to heart but they did express it in their own ways.  They think being the smallest I've been since high school should be enough but even then I was the chubby girl.

Becca's right to some extent but so are you.  When you are motivated by your abilities and successes it is hard to work at anything and not see results.  For me its more than about weight.  I acknowledge I'm not "big" anymore, but not slender either.  I can't just accept that. 

I've worked too hard.  We may both just be hard headed, lol.  I will keep trying to loose but Becca is right.  We should not allow it to keep us perpetually miserable.  Easier said but I am going to try.  Stress hormones prevent weight loss.     

Falling a little short of getting back to basics like I said I would this week.  It's that dag on restaraunt down the block.  In the two years it's been opened, I had been only once and decided I didn't like anything there except the wings.  Then a few weeks ago, I had a taste for wings and I went in there to get some and unfortunately I walked out with six wings and a slice of that homeade 7-up pound cake.  Right then I knew I had fugged up big time .  So now working to break that addiction.  The good news is I'm still below goal, but still by only those 2 lbs.  Also, I've been good this week so far with sweet soda.  I only drank one Pepsi.  So, that's progress to me.  Also, haven't been by Mac Donna's either.

Caught up with workouts.  One more cardio and one more strength training session this week and I'm done with what's required.  Everything else is bonus baby.  Went in early this morning cause I knew tonight was a no go.  Getting better with getting up at 0430 in the mornings to get in the gym.

B:  4 scrips bacon, grits, protein coffee
L:  prolly tuna and crackers (will resist the urge for afternoon snacking)
D:  prolly sloppy jos

Motivation:  soaring!!!!
 

Seven up cake    its been decades, lol.  Those pounds are comming off quickly, good for you.  Stay motivated.

Today is my get my act back together day.  Pain has kept me out the gym but I'm gonna try a run today.  I need the calorie burn and my muscles are tired of sitting still. 

"muscles are tired of sitting still"...  Wish I had that uhhh "problem".  :  )

My BF gave me the swift kick that I needed to get my butt back in gear.  He said that he was disappointed/mad in/at me because he used to watch me in amazement as I turned down food or only ate just a couple of bites and if I said I was ready to start walking or low carbing I did and stuck with it.  He went on to ask what happen...well this is me sitting there.  Needless to say my feelings were hurt and I would not talk very much for about 10 minutes and I think he felt bad for saying what he said.  Previously, I had asked him to call me out when I wasn't doing what I needed to be doing. Well, I didn't think he ever would...but he did!  It definitely stung to hear the words coming out of his mouth.  It is what I needed to hear because I am sitting here as I type this eating a salad. I honestly don't think I ever want to hear him say anything ever again about my "inner fat girl habits" so I must do what I need to do so I won't hear him say it.  It was an eye opener for me and I did not realize the will power that I had back then but I believe hearing his words just gave it back to me. 

Imma call you out.

You went and got a man and figured you were 'done' and decided to 'live a  lil'.  I remember SINGLE Faith - determined to get her fine on so she could hit the skreets..... remember that bytch?

Somewhere in your purdy lil head, you gave yourself a pass after your lipo and weight loss after that - then you sat back and started shovelin! With all KINDS of excuses.  Sorry - but Mardi Gras is NOT soley about food - you wanna 'pig' out on something to celebrate - grab your BF and burn some 'debauchery' calories.

From today until you disappear from the board out of embarassment - I WILL nail your azz everytime you post some bullchit.  Cause you're still in a bit of a fog - and the next thing will be a DRY HAM SAMMICH FROM YOUR MAN CAUSE HE'S CUTTING YOUR CALORIES BY NOT ALLOWING CONDIMENTS!!!

....... yeah - I SAID that chit!!!!   and WHAT???!!!!!!!

Ok so you have call me out...yeah, yeah I remember her...

Until you experience Mardi Gras first hand Louisiana style (being in the Krewe and on the Royal Court)...trust me it is all about FOOD & DRINKS EVERY weekend (and sometimes weekdays for social hours) beginning on 12th night which this year was January 9th all the way until February 16th.  I am really surprised that I didn't blow all the way back up!  At the begginning of our relationship when I sat him down and told him about my "background" i.e. WLS, tummy tuck, lipo...I asked him to call me out when I was going too far.  Like I said, I never expected him to actually do it...boy was I wrong and hearing it from him was enough to put my azz back in gear. 

I am going back to my once a week reward meal.  This has worked for me in the past.  For now, I am doing straight Atkins for at least 5 days just to get rid of all the junk.  And just so you know...I ain't scurred of you....WHAT????!!!!!!!