xp - Whether my world is falling apart or not...

Whether my world falls apart or is exhilarating happy ... I hold myself in REMEMBRANCE ....

Thirteen days ago my whole world was falling apart as I sat in the waiting room in the OR area wondering if at the end of the day my Dhs foot would be totally amputated or not ... the wait was stressful ... I thought I died a million times as I believe the worse case scenario was playing itself out ... but I was able to deal ... I dealt with my emotions, with my fear, with my possibly altered life style and I did with with the encouragement of my friends here and IRL ... people *****ached out with kind words of support and encouragement in my time of great need for support... I dealt with all the emotions and never once did the want, need, or thought of reaching out for that extra snack or food for comfort entered my mind ...

Today I look back at 3 years 2 months post weight loss surgery and each and every day I hold myself in remembrance... in remembrance of the place of 5 co-morbidities that no longer exist ... in remembrance of the woman who could not get up a flight of stairs to assist her daughter who had taken a fall ... in remembrance of snoring sooooooooo loudly as to wake up the entire house ... in remembrance of walking to meetings experiencing chest pains as I tried to keep stride with my healthier co-workers ... in remembrance of taking up two seats and annoying the person next to me ... in remembrance of how I felt and how I dealt when FOOD was my very best friend in my time of need ... if I cried I ate, if I was happy I ate, if I was sad I ate, if I was celebrating I ate and I ate and I ate, if I was hungry I ate and if I was NOT hungry I ate ... FOOD was in control of me ... a total FOOD ADDICT who is in recovery for LIFE ... dat's me...

Three years ... two months post weight loss surgery ... Over fifty and being asked if my daughter is my sister ...
Three years ... two months post weight loss surgery ... I can run a 10K and am ready to tackle a 20...I zumba, and swim, and run, and jog, and kickbox and box ... do yoga Bikram or regular ... weights and exercise...
Three years ... two months post weight loss surgery...  I HAVE KEPT IT ALL OFF AND THEN SOME AND I CHOSE NOT TO RETURN...
Three years ... two months post weight loss surgery ... I can deal with sadness and happiness with anger and pain with life and with issues without reaching for food to comfort me ... I DEAL

This is my remembrance collage ... I am who I am ... fat or thin ... I have HEALTH AND MOBILITY and that is more than enough for me ... I am in control of my choices and determined NOT to wear what I eat ... I am not boastful ... I am paying it forward ... because today instead of overeating I can deal ... with a good word... an act of kindness ... of holding myself in remembrance of me.... and most of ALL I can deal ... with a little help from my friends ... here and IRL ...

Thanking Amy, LeaAnn, Dirtbikemom, and a host of others and all for all the wonderful threads started and all the encouragement I got from my OH Cyberfamily ... either on threads, calls and PMs ... My DH is at a healthcare facility for physical therapy and gait training and will be there for a few more weeks ... and we are sooooooo grateful for your support and encouragement always...

and as Always I thank my OH family or allowing me to share...

MY YESTERDAY AND MY TODAY

3 years 2 months post WLS ...AND KEEPING IT ALL OFF .. ONE DAY AT A TIME .. I AM SOOOOOOO NOT WEARING FOOD ON MY BODY .. BEEN THERE DONE THAT .. IT IS SOOOOOOOO NOT WORTH IT .. 5 CO-MORBIDITIES BEHIND .. I AM SOOOOOO NOT GOING BACK .. I KNOW WHAT TO DO TO....

Whether my world is falling apart around me or whether I am happy I can celebrate with a smile,a good word, or an act of kindness. I DO NOT NEED TO EAT UNLESS I AM HUNGRY although I chewed my fingernails off while DH had surgery 13 days ago.

Thanks for allowing me to share... 
I WILL BE TAKING SOME MUCH NEEDED TIME OFFT HIS WEEK TO FINALLY GET ALL CANVAS AND PARCELS PACKED AND SHIPPED OUT ... BE ON THE LOOK OUT ... I FINALLY HAVE A MOMENT ... (lol) AND MY HOUSE IS GETTING CLUTTERED!!!
 

Muchísimas gracias hermano --- alli le mando su encomienda esta semana ya que estuve ocupada con los problemas de salud de mi esposo y no pude ir al correo ... ya le envío su pintura y su muñeco ...  okay since the translators are not grammatically correct (thank very much my brother -- I will be sending out yr parcels this week as I have been so preoccupied with my DHs health issues I was not able to go tot he post office ... sending canvas and doll)

and I posted Birdman Doll here on purpose (lol) ... isn't he toooooooooo cute???? I need to get Al all patched up ... and get back to my brushes and dolls (lol) ... it is soooooooo worth picking up a paint brush or a hair brush (I have a thing with hair too) rather than a fork ... bad thing is in the past I could have the paint brush, the hairbrush and the doll making out and still picked up the fork and stuffed my face ... not any more though ... if I hold myself in remembrance ...

thanks for the support and encouragement ... and excuse me being a brat posting the doll that you hadn't even noticed I had made when I posted the dolls I made on the R&R board back in August (lol) tooo funny ... I thought I had in someway offended you .... soooooooo glad to know you are not ... makes you soooooooo cool in my book (lol)...

martia...me han movido.  he enviado mi nueva direccion en la BL. 

gracias

 You have done a wonderful job

Thank you so much Donya ... for encouraging a sista on the journey....

Just Wow, Martitalinda!

Your progress is nothing short of AMAZING!!!   I'm so touched by your determination!!!  You brought tears to my eyes, especially reading about how you progressed your mobility all the way to ATHLETE-Level!!! 

Through the challenges, you press on!   What an inspiration!!!!!!

Much continued success to you!!  

Very best wishes to your husband and his recovery, you, and your family!

Thank you soooooooo much my beautiful sista!!!  Picture me an all the way ATHLETE (lol) soooo Not but I do try ... I have a little formula full of P's ...

When I am about to give up I Press on
When I set myself a goal I Pursue
When life comes at me with all manner of mess I Pray
and after I pray I Praise

and this crazy sista here has a Desesperado praise ... you can call that shout an athletic intervention (lol)

As always great inspiring post!

Thank you much Shari ... you are as beautiful as ever ... love your Avie... I have to get Al all patched up and home soon to get back to my canvas and brushes ... I need to start painting my sistas here too...