Nope, I'm not perfect. (Long)

 Just keeping it real.  

Several years ago I set a long term goal to stay within 5 pounds of my goal weight. When tracking process data it’s normal to see slight variations.  I hadn’t been more than 3 pounds over goal since January 2007 and was satisfied that things were in control.    

Well, this morning I was 4 ½ pounds over. Aaaaack! That got my attention.   

I’ve done an honest assessment of what I’ve been doing differently. I’m sharing this with you to help me get myself back on track and also to let you know how easy it is to slip into bad habits.  I don’t fool myself into thinking that this will be the last time that I’ll ever have to do this.  

I’m an addict and food is my drug of choice. There. I said it.  

What was I doing?   

1. Grazing at work. There’s a refrigerator in my office and I’ve been opening it way too often.
2. Not planning my weekday lunch. I’ve just grabbed whatever was handy and thrown it into my lunch bag.
3. Giving in to the vending machine.  Those Big Texas cinnamon rolls and Butterfingers just keep calling me.
4. After hours eating. What IS it about curling up in bed with a Harlequin Romance and a plate of nummies?
5. Eating treats that I bought for the rest of the family.  Just because it’s there.

  And the big one?  

6. Continuing to eat even after the pouch was full. I abused this wonderful tool that I’m so blessed to have.

I know better.  I’ve had this thing for almost 6 years.  What the heck was I thinking?  Well, I wasn’t thinking.   

I made a high protein sandwich on whole wheat bread to have for breakfast this morning.  I was getting close to finishing it when my pouch said to me, “So Blessed, I’m getting full." Then I heard my mother’s voice say, “We can’t afford to waste food. Wrap that up and save it for later." My addiction said, “Girl, there are just a few bites left.  EAT it!  It won’t hurt anything." Then my brain said, “Dang! Why are you tripping? It’s just a stupid sandwich."  

I dropped it into the trash can.  

Today’s a new day. I’m back on track. 
 
 

((((SB))))

So many of us live with the "We can't afford to waste food" imprint. Why can't we get that out of our head? 

Glad to see that you're back on track 

  We've been brainwashed.                            Thanks for the love...

So true. I bought a Jimmy dean egg, ham, and cheese breakfast bowl to work. It was so salty full of sodium. After a few bites, I had to throw it out my co-worker was like are you really going to throw it out? I said yes, its too salty full of sodium. It was hypertension in a bowl.  Approximately, two days later I was eating a double cheeseburger half a bun and got full 25% of the way. I started to wrap it up for later or the next day and she responds, "Are you going to throw it away like you did the other day with the bowl? I said "no I'm saving it for later. The bowl was full of hypertension".  WTF? I mean people need to mind their own business however I understand her perspective she's from Haiti and many of her people are going without food so when she sees food going in the tra**** pains her.

!!!!  Strumming my pain...but you know what?  Many, if not most of us have done the very same thing.  That's why we are here, needed surgery and will always be learning and doing battle with it.   I applaud you for catching yourself before you were 20 lbs over and even greater, taking action.  Good job well done!

Thank you!

I soooooo feel you! I've been off of work for a month now and I have been eating like a fool. Boredom eatin, greedy eating, bar eating, late night after the club eating. I always eat better during teh work week so this has been like a month of weekend eating! I'm getting back on track. I've only gained one pound this whole month but I can feel a lil differnce in my clothes. I'm starting the P90 program today and going back to tracking on daily plate like I used to!

I know what you mean about feeling that ONE pound. 

My stomach feels bloated up like a balloon.  I hate it.  My pants feel too snug and when I hugged my husband I felt that gut between us.   

Ain't no way I'm letting this get worse.

Good read Sue and everyone !!

I have been off track this week due to my retirement in June !!    (wanted to work 3 more years)

I have accepted it and it is a blessing !

Now I have to get back on the protein track !

By the time a lot of people retire they're too old to do anything fun. 
Enjoy this time.

I'm not going to stress over the weight.  Monday’s are my “official" weigh-in day that I record on my Excel chart. I plan to be back within my comfort zone by then.  Today is just a data blip.  

I’m still claiming my successful run since ‘07!