A Size 8 !!!!

I've been getting a few Spring items at the Goodwill and Thrift store and I've been getting smalls and size 8's and 10's !!!!! I can't believe it !!! I don't ever remember wearing that size because my mom made all of my clothes because at the age of 12  I was already 6' tall. My family tells me I'm waaaay too thin for 6'3 and wearing those sizes.  I don't want to go back to the hospital and get fed through the pic line again. I haven't taken any recent pics because I look sickly and tired.

Is it twisted because I like seeing my ribcage, spine. hip bones ? I think that mentally I'm afraid to gain any weight because I might gain it all back. I consistently stay around 170-174 lbs and my dr. would like me at 185-195 lbs.  This is truly a mental ride as well as a physical one. 

PS. I'm neenaj for those that don't know.

Wow is all I can say I was on the same boat I got down to 148 size 6 and my family FREAKED sayin I was looking terrible tooooo skinny and me paniced and started feeling the same tryin to up my calories and now her I am gaining GAINING and GAINING so BE very careful and first make sure everything is ok MENTAL yes it is but just wait it get worst LOL it's a major mind over matter especially the keepin it off part I wa sseeing bones as well I would love to see those BONES again

  You've been through so much recently.  Please get your nutrition in.   Plenty of protein,  all supplements and track your calories. 

What ever size you may be, you need to be healthy and strong and feeding yourself meals not being fed by iv.  Add some calorie dense foods like nuts or peanut butter if your appetite is limited.  Just get those nutrients in for good health.  That matters so much more than your size. 

How I LOVE my local Goodwill 

I'm sending you some good healing vibes for your journey. You've had some rough patches and I'm wishing you nothing but the best.

Hey Soror,

I understand your fear but just strive to eat what is necessary to keep you health up and blood work in check. I am praying that you.  

Thanks y'all. It's weird how I can forget about my health while striving for a size.   Thanks for reminding me about the most important thing first. I do get my vitamins in and I'm working on getting all of my nutrition in everyday, even if it's a protein shake. I need my energy level back up so I will continue to follow the dr's rules, it's no fun being sick.

Take care of yourself.   I hope your health improves.