Love from the past...yeah, right!
Good morning, BAF...(I amost said FB! LOL!)
I was thinking about Brenda's (Glamazon's) post yesterday about past loves...would we...could we...ever go back or think about them at all as we've moved forward...etc.
There are a couple of guys in my past that I have actually forgotten about (what's your name, again?) And then there are a couple that I have thought about often, but not quite wondered where they were/are, etc.
Then there is the man I began dating in my last year of high school (1973-74)...the father of my 2 grown sons...the grandfather of my 8 grandchildren...and the one who was apparently not ready for ME...not ready for US...hell, just NOT READY!
He took his "not ready" self on to marry 2 other women...both marriages ending in divorce...because, right ... he was NOT READY! I took my NOT READY self on to marry my ex-husband, a marriage that was kind of doomed from the start (he - much older, controlling, abusive...me - wanting to be loved, wanting a husband, period...not thinking of the future with him, knowing that he was verbally and mentally abusive)...but I loved him...and was so NOT READY!
We didn't hear from one another for over 9 years...as he moved out of Chicago to get himself together...and then, 2 years ago, our youngest son reached out...touched someone...and reconnected with him; and, we began communicating on occasion.
He returned to Chicago last year for a visit with his sons...we all had a GREAT time together...but, I had no plans for any relationship with him. However, something had changed about him...he was so calm, funny, spiritual, sweet, and caring...that's what happens when you look in the mirror and see a person YOU don't like...and you ask God to remove SELFISHNESS and to take your life in HIS hands.
Fast forward to today...in 17 days, we will gather with our family and friends in the sight of God, and make a promise to love, honor, and cherish one another for the rest of our lives. It has taken GOD 35 years to bring us together, as husband and wife - in HIS TIME - not our time - GOD'S TIME! We both know we had to experience the joys and pains of life that we experienced so that God could "join asunder" - and we are blessed!
I say all that to say...IT HAPPENS...
DD
I was thinking about Brenda's (Glamazon's) post yesterday about past loves...would we...could we...ever go back or think about them at all as we've moved forward...etc.
There are a couple of guys in my past that I have actually forgotten about (what's your name, again?) And then there are a couple that I have thought about often, but not quite wondered where they were/are, etc.
Then there is the man I began dating in my last year of high school (1973-74)...the father of my 2 grown sons...the grandfather of my 8 grandchildren...and the one who was apparently not ready for ME...not ready for US...hell, just NOT READY!
He took his "not ready" self on to marry 2 other women...both marriages ending in divorce...because, right ... he was NOT READY! I took my NOT READY self on to marry my ex-husband, a marriage that was kind of doomed from the start (he - much older, controlling, abusive...me - wanting to be loved, wanting a husband, period...not thinking of the future with him, knowing that he was verbally and mentally abusive)...but I loved him...and was so NOT READY!
We didn't hear from one another for over 9 years...as he moved out of Chicago to get himself together...and then, 2 years ago, our youngest son reached out...touched someone...and reconnected with him; and, we began communicating on occasion.
He returned to Chicago last year for a visit with his sons...we all had a GREAT time together...but, I had no plans for any relationship with him. However, something had changed about him...he was so calm, funny, spiritual, sweet, and caring...that's what happens when you look in the mirror and see a person YOU don't like...and you ask God to remove SELFISHNESS and to take your life in HIS hands.
Fast forward to today...in 17 days, we will gather with our family and friends in the sight of God, and make a promise to love, honor, and cherish one another for the rest of our lives. It has taken GOD 35 years to bring us together, as husband and wife - in HIS TIME - not our time - GOD'S TIME! We both know we had to experience the joys and pains of life that we experienced so that God could "join asunder" - and we are blessed!
I say all that to say...IT HAPPENS...
DD
I choose to love myself, live life to the fullest, and encourage others to liberate themselves!
Great post! Only GOD can reach back into our yesterdays and fix our right now. It does not happen often, but when it happens and it is GOD's doing...It works out like it ought to. Sometimes we march through this life not knowing that we did not match GOD's timing, but somewhere and sometime when we begin marching at GOD's cadence, we match the time and find out we are right where we have been waiting a lifetime to get to. Many blessings to you and yours, May the GOD's grace continue to sustain you and HIS love and peace keep you continously.
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Congrats on Happiness DD...nothing like being in LOVE when you BOTH are READY!!!
Now, I can say I wasn't sure if I was ready to marry my husband when I did but I can say honestly today with a HUGE smile on my face..... I'm glad that I did. What GOD has put together can't NO man( or woman) tear apart.
NOW......The negro I dated before my husband (who I SWORE I was sooooo ready to marry)...I was so glad GOD stepped in and tore that mess up real quick. I wore a broken heart for a very long time but God gave me somone that was good to me & good for me.
But...mmmm, mmmm, mmm.....if I saw that negro today and he was on the side of the road sitting in front of a big puddle of muddy water on a cold snowy & rainy day outside......YES I WOULD....I'd drive straight through that puddle of water praying he DIDN'T catch a cold! LOL
Now, I can say I wasn't sure if I was ready to marry my husband when I did but I can say honestly today with a HUGE smile on my face..... I'm glad that I did. What GOD has put together can't NO man( or woman) tear apart.
NOW......The negro I dated before my husband (who I SWORE I was sooooo ready to marry)...I was so glad GOD stepped in and tore that mess up real quick. I wore a broken heart for a very long time but God gave me somone that was good to me & good for me.
But...mmmm, mmmm, mmm.....if I saw that negro today and he was on the side of the road sitting in front of a big puddle of muddy water on a cold snowy & rainy day outside......YES I WOULD....I'd drive straight through that puddle of water praying he DIDN'T catch a cold! LOL
Mrs. Trina
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