I am gonna give church another shot (semi-long rambling post)
sorry - but I need my music and hollerin! LMAOOOOO 
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on 3/1/10 10:09 pm - ~Somewhere in~, PA
on 3/1/10 10:09 pm - ~Somewhere in~, PA
MD, I grew up in the church, I used to go every Sunday when I lived in Atlanta, my mother was the president of the mother board of our church, my half-brother was a deacon, and if you did not attend church you were considered a "sinner".
All that said, now since I've relocated to the DC area I have not been to church in a LONG TIME, only to funerals and such, but I long for a "good church" so many churches are corrupt with "sinners" and all they want is communion and dues; you got a lot more "devils' up in the church than out..lol, so I really don't consider going to church to sort of save me from all my evil deeds...lol.
At this point in my life I am seeking a church that will embrace me and Erik so I think I will seek a church that have many nationalities and ethic groups and races and focus on community, well being, faith and god. I feel that as long as you have God in your heart, you will continue to be blessed....there are so many devils that called themselves saved...and will talk and gossip about you in a hot minute....just my thoughts..I think you have god in your soul...and you are are good person and that is all it takes...take care
All that said, now since I've relocated to the DC area I have not been to church in a LONG TIME, only to funerals and such, but I long for a "good church" so many churches are corrupt with "sinners" and all they want is communion and dues; you got a lot more "devils' up in the church than out..lol, so I really don't consider going to church to sort of save me from all my evil deeds...lol.
At this point in my life I am seeking a church that will embrace me and Erik so I think I will seek a church that have many nationalities and ethic groups and races and focus on community, well being, faith and god. I feel that as long as you have God in your heart, you will continue to be blessed....there are so many devils that called themselves saved...and will talk and gossip about you in a hot minute....just my thoughts..I think you have god in your soul...and you are are good person and that is all it takes...take care
Hey Naomi,
I think its not so much a matter of me going to church for my salvation. I feel that if there is a such thing...(which I want to believe there is)...I have lead a good enough life and hope that my savior will consider all...and how well I have faired in making any judgments. I really want to go...just to reinforce the fact that THERE IS a higher power...and many folks think its worthy of devoted time to God. Plus....there can be very powerful and uplifting messages in the church.
I think once the weather breaks...the girls and I will be spending much more time in nature AND that is also very powerful and healing for me. Nothing like walking through a botanical garden on a nice bright sunny day to make you realize the awesomeness of God's creations.
I thank you for your kinds words. I know that you and Erik are good peeps too and I hope that life brings you all the joys that it has to offer.
I think its not so much a matter of me going to church for my salvation. I feel that if there is a such thing...(which I want to believe there is)...I have lead a good enough life and hope that my savior will consider all...and how well I have faired in making any judgments. I really want to go...just to reinforce the fact that THERE IS a higher power...and many folks think its worthy of devoted time to God. Plus....there can be very powerful and uplifting messages in the church.
I think once the weather breaks...the girls and I will be spending much more time in nature AND that is also very powerful and healing for me. Nothing like walking through a botanical garden on a nice bright sunny day to make you realize the awesomeness of God's creations.
I thank you for your kinds words. I know that you and Erik are good peeps too and I hope that life brings you all the joys that it has to offer.
Was raised Baptist, but attended Catholic school from k-12. I was getting all kinds of religious messages growing up. LOL!
Seriously though, your walk with or towards God is your own. I understand the feeling of wanting to be in the body of Christ, but not wanting to deal with all the "extras" that come along with co-mingling various personalities. You know, if you have a job that you go to each day you may not like everything that happens with the folks there, but it doesn't stop you from going each day to collect a check. The check helps you sustain your lifestyle.
Think of attending church is getting your spiritual check. You might not like all the personalities there, but the spiritual check you receive helps you to sustain your lifestyle in ways that nothing else will.
I have friends of all religions, and friends who don't believe. I've learned the art of appreciation for most religions and I see what those religions bring to the individuals life. It really is a personal journey.
I pray that you find a church home and can continue your walk with or towards God. He truly is all there is!!!!
Seriously though, your walk with or towards God is your own. I understand the feeling of wanting to be in the body of Christ, but not wanting to deal with all the "extras" that come along with co-mingling various personalities. You know, if you have a job that you go to each day you may not like everything that happens with the folks there, but it doesn't stop you from going each day to collect a check. The check helps you sustain your lifestyle.
Think of attending church is getting your spiritual check. You might not like all the personalities there, but the spiritual check you receive helps you to sustain your lifestyle in ways that nothing else will.
I have friends of all religions, and friends who don't believe. I've learned the art of appreciation for most religions and I see what those religions bring to the individuals life. It really is a personal journey.
I pray that you find a church home and can continue your walk with or towards God. He truly is all there is!!!!
Ziggy,
You don't know what you have just done for me. I love analogies AND the one you just gave me will help me move forward with my journey with a much more positive frame of mind.
As Sophia said, "I KNOW THERE IS A GOD"....even if I have doubts about some of the the spiritual gifts that man has laid their hands on. My testimony is my proof that God exists. From the time that my mama turned her back on me when my stepfather sexually abused me...by sending me to live with my alcoholic grandmom..where I was subsequently sexually abused/tortured for years by two uncles as well as one of her old azz boyfriends, an so called friend of the family's and a white man at the fruit stand...I knew there was a GOD. GOD was revealed to me...when I jumped out of a speeding car on the highway because the friend of the family threatened to take me somewhere and rape me. All I remember was rolling onto the side of the road....standing up and walking down the shoulder ...crying with only a few scrapes and bruises until my family picked me up. I could have been dead..sustained serious injuries at 55-60mph....could have been rolled over by one of so many cars on the highway that day...yet I was spared. It was if GOD stretched out a hand to cushion my fall. I have felt the presence many time since and the is no logical explanation that any man can offer to make me think it was anything else.
I have dealt with the death of my youngest sister, my baby sister has been missing since she was 16 (over 25 years ago) and my brother is incarcerated...been in almost 18 years since age 17. My mom whom I have forgave is clinically depressed and I have to deal with the prospects of her trying to take her own life on a daily basis. Every day...have fear that I am going to get "the call". There is so much more to my testimony BUT I know that GOD exists....this is no other way that I would be able to deal with all this pain.....I have to believe or I would have jumped off a bridge or taken some other drastic measures long ago. Yet...here I stand a relatively successful woman...trying my best to live a good life and not cause my mother any more grief.
I know that sometimes I might seem to have a few loose screws on here...lol BUT I actually think that I am one of the sanest people on this earth. I vent on here a lot...say some wacky stuff...but it helps keep me grounded IRL. I love my girls...and I try my best to be the BEST mom that anyone could have....I know I have faults...but I know that if i just get closer to GOD that I will be able to get through the rest. My soon to be teenage daughter will need God to be present and very close in my life...or I might have to take her out....lol... I can already see the writing on the wall.
I am going to collect my spiritual paycheck. You are so right....AND I am tired of selling myself short.
You don't know what you have just done for me. I love analogies AND the one you just gave me will help me move forward with my journey with a much more positive frame of mind.
As Sophia said, "I KNOW THERE IS A GOD"....even if I have doubts about some of the the spiritual gifts that man has laid their hands on. My testimony is my proof that God exists. From the time that my mama turned her back on me when my stepfather sexually abused me...by sending me to live with my alcoholic grandmom..where I was subsequently sexually abused/tortured for years by two uncles as well as one of her old azz boyfriends, an so called friend of the family's and a white man at the fruit stand...I knew there was a GOD. GOD was revealed to me...when I jumped out of a speeding car on the highway because the friend of the family threatened to take me somewhere and rape me. All I remember was rolling onto the side of the road....standing up and walking down the shoulder ...crying with only a few scrapes and bruises until my family picked me up. I could have been dead..sustained serious injuries at 55-60mph....could have been rolled over by one of so many cars on the highway that day...yet I was spared. It was if GOD stretched out a hand to cushion my fall. I have felt the presence many time since and the is no logical explanation that any man can offer to make me think it was anything else.
I have dealt with the death of my youngest sister, my baby sister has been missing since she was 16 (over 25 years ago) and my brother is incarcerated...been in almost 18 years since age 17. My mom whom I have forgave is clinically depressed and I have to deal with the prospects of her trying to take her own life on a daily basis. Every day...have fear that I am going to get "the call". There is so much more to my testimony BUT I know that GOD exists....this is no other way that I would be able to deal with all this pain.....I have to believe or I would have jumped off a bridge or taken some other drastic measures long ago. Yet...here I stand a relatively successful woman...trying my best to live a good life and not cause my mother any more grief.
I know that sometimes I might seem to have a few loose screws on here...lol BUT I actually think that I am one of the sanest people on this earth. I vent on here a lot...say some wacky stuff...but it helps keep me grounded IRL. I love my girls...and I try my best to be the BEST mom that anyone could have....I know I have faults...but I know that if i just get closer to GOD that I will be able to get through the rest. My soon to be teenage daughter will need God to be present and very close in my life...or I might have to take her out....lol... I can already see the writing on the wall.
I am going to collect my spiritual paycheck. You are so right....AND I am tired of selling myself short.
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