My Motivation

I had a great opportunity of going to a class provided by my company this weekend. The Topic was insurance. Usually in this setting I am very cautious, millions of questions fill my thoughts... Will I fit into the chair, will people stare at me... ect.

Well this time, I walked in the class sat down in the front section, I would normally go to the back. My instructor was heavy set as well, I was most definitely the heavier of the two of us though. At some point the instructor called my name... and asked me to stand up and he said, "Look at Mr. Keeton, He would be considered a substandard risk due to his obesity". He continued on to say some other things  that didnt even pertain to insurance at all... They were quite personal.

My face went blank and In my mind I began to play out how this all would have gone down on the sidewalk... Me picking him up and slamming him on the ground... But I digress... As I came back to reality. I smiled and went back to my seat my palms sweaty, face totally red from embarrassment. Over the course of the 2 days he kept saying things and using me as the overweight example. I didnt bother me as much though.

It actually just brought things into focus for me. This surgery is only a tool and if I dont work it I will still be in the same position I was before. I'm motivated to workout even harder than before.  People dont know where you come from nor do they understand your situation. I know that I've lost 120lbs but they dont. I learned this weekend that no matter what, just lose the weight for you! Even when I  lose the amount of weight I want to people will still have something to say. Either I'm still too fat, too skinny, look sick,  or  stuck up...
 

So no matter what happens I have to stay focused and motivated for MYSELF! I will not allow another persons view of me discourage me.

Spoken very well

I can't believe that dam insurance man had the freaking balls to call you up there and use you as the example of obesity.  WHAT THE HELL IS THAT ABOUT ????

I would have cussed his ass out afterwards.  

I was so stunned... I didnt really know what to say (that didnt include me choking him)lol

  u a better man than me - I'd have calculated the risk to my GPA and gave the class a REAL lesson........

 

 like 'look at the prof's sloped forehead - clearly a sign of possible down's syndrome traits - he needs a vascetomy to keep him from procreating and populating the world with more slow folk and insurance SHOULD cover that......'

It's too late, he has kids already lol

time to move to the subject of insurance paid 'after birth terminations'..................

  again! LMAOOOOO

JUST MORBID!!!! lol

wow, ur a better person that me! I don't know if  I would've been able to turn the other cheek that easily!

But on the other hand it was a good motivator for you so I guess u have to take what u can and make the best of it.

Well thanks to Mack Mama....
 
I don't sweat the small stuff anymore. Which doesn't mean that I don't get upset when stuff happens.
 
I just look at the grand scheme of things. Because I am fat people are gonna say all kinds of stuff, which I'm used to at this point... I guess the crazy thing is I pretty much expect that! Being that I'm in the middle of my transformation, some people will see it as my beginning and even further down the line people will see it as my norm. Life is too short to get upset over people who dont matter... I'm 28  and I find my self growing up more and more everyday.