I will lie to myslef but not to you guys...

I have been doing some reflecting over the past couple of weeks. I remember right after surgery I would hear people say how they gained there weight back and I would sit back all judgmental, think HOW IN THE WORLD DID THEY ALLOW THEM SELF TO GAIN THE WEIGHT BACK. Well over the past couple of month I have fallen back into the old bad habits that got me to the 315lb point I was at, at surgery. I said this to say i can continue to lie to myself that i am not eating that bad because I haven't really gained any weight......but I know that is a lie. They say it helps to say things out loud so that's what i am doing. Hi my name is Jevon and I am a potential weight-loss failure. Help!!

Thanks for the support Middle Man. By the way you have done really well!!!

Y THANK YOU MIZZ LADY!

Hi Jevon,

My name is Sirett and I am a food addict.

The first step in any addiction is to admit it.  Food is an addiction that is needed to survive.

Now that you have admitted the fact you can go on to be able to work on it.

Good luck and use all your resources.

Sirett, obvioulsy i am too. I realize I should eat to survive, but I eat because it is enjoyable for the most part.

I may look like an ass for this, BUT.....

Help me understand.  How did you let yourself continue to slide all the way back to your surgery weight?  I think the newbies and some of us vets need to know what's in the head and not just actions of those *****gain - we need to learn what to look out for.

I have 'cut points' - like 200.  When I see 200 - I am all out on the food, exercise, whatever it takes.  I've hit 200 twice since I first past it up, and got back in line within 2 or 3 weeks.  I'm trying to get back to 186 - which is where I comfortable.  But I haven't ever not been able to wear the clothes I have in my closet, which are all my current size 10/12.  I have in my head to never buy larger sizes. 

I read on your page this time last year you were around 220 - what's been going on that you let 100lbs get past you?  Please know I am not judging - I am far from perfect myself on this journey and using this tool - but I really want to understand how this happens, because I might be fooling myself to think that my current way of keeping myself in check will work.

NO NO MM, I am no where near my surgery weight!!! Girl please I would be devastated and I cant even lie about that. But i realize that on track that I am on I will be.  I actually have only gained about 6lbs but its not because I have been working out and eating right! Based on the way I have been eating I should gained at least 20lbs.

And yes you have my permission if i get back to that 300lb mark...judge me.

oh - okay - this statement had me confused:
Well over the past couple of month I have fallen back into the old bad habits that got me to the 315lb point I was at, at surgery.

I didn't see anything about only 6lbs.  My bad!!! - ok, now I get what you meant.