10K UnderWay, Week 4 , Run 2. I FEEL LIKE QUITTING

Morning Yall

I am a bit discouraged today.   I just feel like I workout like crazy, I eat well even NutriSystem and I try so hard and I still can't lose a dam pound, in fact all I ever seem to do is gain. 

I talked to my dietician (bull****),  I talk to my primary doc, I talk to my surgeon and they have no idea how my body does not lose weight.      I have so many eating journals and so much documentation of all the things I have done and still NOTHING !!!!   Not a ******g pound.  It really hurts to workout as much as I do only to constantly gain weight.

So I feel like giving up on running, but of course I won't.   Feeling like this made my run a living hell this morning cause every second I wanted to stop.   I finished the dam run but I keep asking myself why the hell am i putting myself through this, there is NEVER any payoff for me.

I'm sorry guys I just don't feel happy today.  Becca keeps giving me this it's good for your heart bull****  and yeah I know all that and I am sure my freaking heart is strong as an ox the way I workout, but I want it to be good for my big azz.

MY RUN IS DONE.  SEE YALL FRIDAY.
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It is Thursday and I got up and ran and feel a lot better today,  still a bit bummed, but I ran better today and that is good.  

Becca tried to explain to me this is why she got rid of that dam scale for 6 months before, and not to be surprised if it comes up missing again for good.  I actually would not be mad.

So I'm kind of back to my right mind,  not all the way,  but i'm ready to finish this week out tomorrow.

Damn Lee I'm sorry it remains a struggle for you.  Its hard for a lot of folks to understand how some of us do more than required and still gain weight post op.  Hell, we and our doctors can't even figure it out. 

Good run though.  10k is hughe!

Hey MSW

My frustration level is just really high today.   It doesn't matter what I try I just cannot lose a pound, but I can gain my ass off .   

I am probably going to do this run over again later today and see if I can get my head around this feeling. 

Your right it really sucks when even the doctors can't tell you what the hell is wrong with you.

C25k, week 5, day 1 complete.

Lee,

Sorry to know that you are feeling discouraged since you are such a huge ENCOURAGEMENT to all of us. I can't completely relate to how you feel because you work out and push yourself  WAY more than me but I can understand where you are coming from.

It does become frustrating. I spoke with the doctor I saw yesterday about the same thing and he asked if I considered that I may be gaining muscle weight which would account for me not seeing results on the scale. I pondered it for a moment but I still want to see the scales move. The doctor even said that he wont even consider doing any work on my arms and I need to just do some strength training. I'd rather the easy way and just let them cut away the loose skin instead of trying to tone it up. I am Lazy. So now I am totally committed to this 100 push up **** I got myself into.

Lee, I have no advise or awe inspiring message for you but I do want you to know that you have been an inspiration to me and you have motivated me to push hard even when I don't want to. Thanks Lee.

Thanks Heavenlydelight

I'm just frustrated today is all.   I should have never stepped my ass on the scale but I just figured with all the dam running and NutriSystem I would of at least lost 1 ******g pound.  But NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.    

If another doctor mentions my muscles and them weighing a lot to me again I may end up on the news.   Isn't muscle suppose to help burn this dam fat.   lol

So I decided to make myself feel better and i'm enjoying a bag of oreos and man do I feel good right now.    Guess Oreos are my drug of choice.

Buck up lil camper, remember tomorrow is another day!.  Since you done gone to the darkside for the moment, you might as well have you a m&m chaser with those Oreo's, cause I know you have a stash still. 

LOL  LOL,    Girl you know that's right.    I have my tear and share pack of m&m's sitting right here smiling at me.  

I will wallow in my fat today and then tomorrow i'm back into my futiile game of exercise and not losing weight.

Week 4 day 2 complete!

I was looking forward to the 1 minute walks this morning. Quite unusual cause I want to run straight. I hate the breaks.

Hang in there Lee! I keep thinking back to the picture you posted when you were going to that party with Becca. You look great! And I am guessing you feel better than you ever have.

Ok, the scale is evil. I weigh everyday that I exercise. Seems this go round my body is hanging on to this weight for dear life! It is playing with those 6 pounds up and down.

Forget the number. Focus on how you feel and how your clothes are fitting. The number on the scale is not budging yet my blouses are not fitting right anymore. My body is still reshaping in spite of that evil scale!

I know we have a hard time 'seeing' how good we look so let me say YOU LOOK GREAT!

Have an oreo and some mm's and then get back to work!

 

Morning Fionna

I needed those min walks myself too.   I think it's the pace that made me need them more this morning.    I was trying to run from my head so I ran a bit faster.

Thanks for the compliment ,  but if I told you how much I weighed you would be shocked.   I don't want to always be tittering on the verge of being fat again. 

Couch to 5k, week 5 day 2 is complete. Tonight I complete day 3 and plan to do day 3 again on tommorrow night. Rest on Saturday and begin week 6 on Sunday.

I plan to do the 5k Turkey Trott on Thanksgiving morning