#1 MM has me thinking

Is this journey different for those who have been slimmer before and gained weight along the way due to pregnancy, marriage, life changes or whatever as opposed to someone who has always been bigger than most their entire lives...

I would think that it is different because being in my situation (171 size 10) I have NEVER felt this way before, This is all new to me...After about 7 years old I was aLWAYS bigger...In high school I was a 14/16 and in junior high school I was big as well (Prior to surgery I was a size 24 and the Ashley Stewart employees knew me personally as well as my favorite food places)...I was NEVER small so I am kind of amazaed at the changes. For someone who was small before I would think that they are happy about the changes but because they experienced it all before it would be different for them...Please correct me if I am wrong.

I have not been under 200 lbs my entire adult life and was always an overweight child.  I wonder about this too.

Interesting question.  I held off obesity for awhile but I have no recollection of ever not being fat.  Maybe that's why I never saw myself as obese until now. 

Wonder no more!!!  YES - the ish IS different!!!!!

Mofos who have been small at SOME point know what it feels like - the changes aren't so crazy for them - and they have more of a sense of what they are working toward.......

I've ALWAYS been fat - so right now - I am the SMALLEST and FINEST I have EVER EVER EVER been...... EVER!!!!  lol  It's like getting a brand new car ---- a stick shift when you've only ever driven automatic.  you know HOW to drive a car - but you gotta get used to how to 'work' the new one - ya dig????

When I graduated high school I weighed 120.  At my height of 5'4" that meant I had a BMI of 20.5.  I know where I'm going because I've already been there.  I'm not going through any major changes..  The irritating thing is having attention and then becoming invisible with the weight gain and then becoming visible again once the weight comes off.  Taught me a lot about people in general not just men.

The people that I know who've been obese since childhood and then had WLS have gone through some major changes.  They have to change their perceptions and attitude about so many things...jobs, relationships, personal style/image.  I really don't blame anyone for going buckwild after dropping the weight because they probably missed out on so many opportunities when they were young. 

Though I was small in high school and as a young adult loosing weight this time around is messing with a sister big time. My body has changed and frankly it freaking depressing!! I haven't lost a tremendous amount yet but I'm depressed more now than ever. Because I do know how my body once looked and as the weight loss continues I see how gross it is becoming. I didn't go into this thinking I would snap back. I knew the damage was done. I believe the adjustment will be hell for me and others who knew the former self as thin small fine wwhatever twist u put on it. Because you really don't snap back you are saggy baggy n cellulite filled. You really feel like your former self has been lost forever in a sea of freaking stretched out skin n fat. Well at least I do. I'm so angry at myself but nothing I can do now. Hope this helps. I really don't know what to expect and I avoid full body mirrors. I'm not sure how I will see myself in a yr but right now im not pleased at all.

You gave me something to think about.  Although I was overweight and then obese throughout my life I've always looked good, firm tight.  I missed out on nothing in my personal life or career because of weight except bikinis.  Now with everything so loose I can't see me the same way anymore.  These baggy thighs and arms freak me out daily.  I must remind myself its better than the alternative. 

You guys have me thinking...............now remember I'm on heavy meds from the pneumonia and my body is aching so if this response is crazy just tell me to go lay down somewhere. lol

Here are my thoughts:

I guess I didn't think about this before responding to Mack's post but I guess I'm double sided. Right before I graduated from high school I was pushing 200 but thought it was ok...I'm 5'9". I am now 229 and trying my hardest to get under 200. Now to me I feel like the old me but to be perfectly honest I think my whole adult life I've been pretty heavy. So, on one hand I feel like ....I'm back but on the other hand as an adult..........I've never really been here before. Overall, I feel great and I've never felt so good about myself.

hijack

Hey Ms T,  I hope you and the kids are getting better.  Still praying  for you all. 

 Hijack....Mz T I have placed you and the children before  my congregation. I just got back from consecration prayer. We are meeting every night this week. We are gathering names and situations and putting them on the altar when we gather. Know that you are loved and intercession is being done for you and on your families behalf.
Grace mercy healing and peace
JOJO